harlow! i juz realised how much i luv kids! u noe wad..i was feeling all down, upset n moody...on my way back home, i saw this lady on the foot path with a small little infant..den when da lady saw me, she raised the infant so that it can see me..den she held the baby's hand n waved to me..when i waved back n smiled at the baby, it smiled back to me! oh my god! u noe tt smile seemed to have a thousand expressions...i cld c da innocence n cuteness...

da innocence cannot be seen in any adult's face, not even adolescents...oh my god! the baby brightened up my day, or rather, my evening! how i wish i wld live in a hse full of infants n i can keep looking at their innocent faces throughout my life! i had no heart to leave the place u noe...some might find it irritating when babies cry...but when u change ur view point, it is juz so wonderful! i feel as if god is trying to convey some message to me through the baby..we hindus, believe that babies r equivalent to god...yep..well...i luv innocent kids, especially infants...

n i shd thank god for offering me the golden opportunity to c my sister grow, from birth till today...for 6 years...da things tt happen r juz so beautiful...well..my life then has a meaning after all..i shall become a paediatrician n look at kids the whole day long...omg! i m so in luv with infants! i wld say only kids are innocent..i agree even i m not innocent..although i wld luv to be one..once a person noes what he or she is doing, one is not innocent...n i can say peng ke has an innocent face...well...nth much den..c ya!
thanks cute little baby!
n thank you god!
bubbye!

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, May 25, 2006

hey guys! it has been almost 3 months since i blogged..well...what can i say nw..erm..was very busy with exams..exams have driven me mad..nw exams r over but i m not relieved from my burden..i m quite disappointed with myself, i mean my results..when i gt back my results, i almost cried..i became mad over myself..

as for you-know-who, i hvnt got to tok to tt person for quite some time...has been almost a month since we had da tym to tok to each other..da last tym i toked to tt person was da day before my exams, 27 april..haiz..so my other support oso gone..left with only peng ke to tok to..who i think is da best person for me to tok to..budden i cant use da phone for long...n we don sit beside each other any more...so it is like i only get to even look at her face 3 times a day, for 25 mins each tym..morning before lessons, recess, n lunch.. we go home by different means of transport.. i ride hme n she takes da bus..n we oso dun sit beside each other in assembly..haiz..

i m going mad! i feel like studying summore to feel more confident, budden when i open my book n sit in front of it, my heart sinks, i start feeling restless...

dere is only one difference between an alcoholic n a workaholic..an alcoholic starts developing withdrawal symptoms when he stops drinking alcohol.. .a workaholic however, develops withdrawal symptoms like feeling restless n going mad when he starts doing work after a short break for 3 days..he needs some time to slowly develop his pace again in working...like wise, i have lost my pace in my 3 days break, n i cant get back to da speed i had juz before da exams..which means i have to build up my stamina right from square one..haiz..

thanks to peng ke for persuading me to watch "Chronicles of Narnia" screened in da library today..it was nice..n went to discovery centre today..so enjoyed myself today..budden muz go n study nw, to make up for da day spent with out studying...

okies..gtg..bubbyee..

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, May 24, 2006