hey guys..has bin over 10 days since i blogged...well..wad can i say...i hv binvery very busy with my common tests that i hv not been relaxing for the past 3 weeks...as if i m a person who noes hw to relax lidat..u noe ah...evry time i feel like relaxing, i juz dunno hw to..n i dun feel like..i juz go ahead with my academic work..even blogging dsnt provide me with relaxation...i juz get more guilty, feeling tt i can spend my blogging tym on my studies...even if i try n console myself tt i shd relax...i juz cant get myself to relax..i cant get myself to tok my hearts out to any one..i dun feel like trusting any one..NOT EVEN myself...i hv bin bottling up all mi feelings to myself..haiz...may god bless me n my studies...tt's all i want in my life...da only thing i hope to achieve in life, get into M _ _ I _ _ N _ in S'p and an _.B._.S or an _.D (this is not for anyone to noe but juz for me to noe..a form of pouring out wadeva i feel like)..even dis is not da place where i can be myself..even if i maintain a personal, hand-written diary, i cant guarantee tt no one wld c it...haiz...world is evil..or rather, i take it to be evil..well...dere might be sum one out dere for me (although a lot of ppl act like dey care for me n do bad stuff behind my baq)..but dere might be a person who truly cares for me..if dere is not a single soul who loves me n cares for me, only den da worls is really EVIL...nth much to say la...juz too pissed off, hurt n restless to say or do anth...btw ppl reading dis, pls dun get offended...i really dunno y i m pissed off..but i noe i m pissed....i feel as if some one or smth is being snatched away frm me...n i feel very restless...an usettling heart, mind body and soul...i oso feel v inferior n stupid..haiz...
bye den..

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, August 25, 2005

hey guys...juzz peeped to wish my home land, an advanced Happy 58th Independence Day!
HAPPY 58TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST INDIA! mother india is turning 58 on august 15..after 250 horrible years of slave-life of indians under the british rule, india, my INDIA got independence on August 15 1947...i shd thank the great Mahatma Gandhi Ji! he was a great leader and he was the main person who fought for independence...having salt marching...fasting...he is reknowned for non-violence...it was dis non-violent way of protesting against da colonial rule, tt gradually changed the british masters' minds...mahatma gandhi ji's original name is mohandas karamchand gandhi...n if i m not wrong, he was born in Gujarat, Porbandhar...on october 2..i dunno da year tt he was born in...he was shot dead by a betrayer in 1948...he was given the title "mahatma" which stands for maha+atma...maha means great and atma means soul, in a language called sanskrit...so he is the great soul! he is also known as The father of Nation by Indians...

of course dere were many other leaders who fought for independence...Netaji Subash Chandra Bose, Jawaharlal Nehru (1st Prime minister of India) and many others...i thank you all for fighting for OUR COUNTRY'S INDEPENDENCE! SARE JAHAN SE ACHA! HINDUSTAN HAMARA!

My respect and dedication to my country:

Our national Anthem:(composed by nobel laureate rabindranath tagore)

Jaana Gaana Maana Adhinayaka Jayehe
Bharata bhagya vidhata;
Punjaba Sindhu Gujarata Maratha,
Dravida Utkala Banga,
Vindhya, Himachala, Jamuna, Ganga,
Ucchhala Jaladhitaranga;
Taba Shubha Naame Jaage
Taba Shubha Ashish Maage
Gaye taba jaya gaatha.
Jaana Gaana Mangala Dhaayakha Jayahe
Bharata bhagya vidhata;
Jaya he Jaye he
Jaya Jaya Jaya Jaya he!

The english translation:

Thou art the ruler of the minds of all people,
Dispenser of India's destiny.
Thy name rouses the hearts of the Punjab,
Sind, Gujarat, and Maratha,
Of the Dravid, and Orissa and Bengal.
It echoes in the hills of Vindhyas and,
Himalayas, mingles in the music of the
Jamuna and the Ganges and is chanted by
the waves of the Indian sea.
The pray for the blessings,
and sing by the praise,
The saving of all people
waits in thy hand.
Thou dispenser of India's destiny,
Victory, victory, victory to thee.

National Song: (Shree Aurobindo)

Sanskrit Version:

Vande Mataram Sujalam Suphalam

Malayaja Shitalam Shasyashyamalamm

Mataram !

Shubharajyothsna Pulakitayaminim

Phullakusumita drumadala

Shobinim Suhasinim Sumadhura

Bhasinim Sujhadam varadam

Mataram!

English Version:

bow to the Mother, Richly watered, richly fruited

Cool with the winds of the South, Dark with the crops of the harvests,

The Mother!

Her nights rejoicing in the Glory of the moonlight

Her hands clothed beautifully with her trees in flowering bloom

Sweet of laughter, sweet of speech

The Mother, giver of boons,giver of Bliss.
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Long live my country INDIA! I LOVE YOU INDIA! YOU ARE MY BREATH, HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL! YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING! MAY YOU PROSPER AND OVERCOME ALL OBSTACLES, TO ACHIEVE AN OUTSTANDING POSITION IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD! MY DREAM OF YOU IS TO BE THE PERFECT COUNTRY EVER! YOU SHOULD BE THE PERFECT PLACE TO LIVE IN...YOU SHOULD BEAR CITIZENS WHO ARE PATRIOTIC TOWARDS YOU! MOTHER INDIA'S CHILDREN MUST BE LOYAL TO THEIR COUNTRY!

and here, i pledge to be loyal and patriotic to you and only to you! you gave birth to me! you provided me with a place to live in...you gave me the right to be your citizen! i thankyou for that! i m hoping to see you develop...more and more as days pass by...beyond all odds! success is never a destination! it is a journey! i pray for my india's road to success to be smooth! i vow that i will make a difference to the current india! i will help you! i m there for you! if not for others, you have me, Nivetha, an indian citizen there for you! i m sure my fellow brothers and sisters who are indian citizens are there for you anytime you need us to help you develop! i will thus try my best, to uphold my nation's values and morals! i will bring pride to my country!

General Pledge:

India is my country. All Indians are my brothers and sisters.

I Love my country. I am proud of its rich and varied culture. I shall always strive to be worthy of it.

I shall love and respect my parents, teachers and elders.

To my country and my people I pledge my devotion


National Integration Pledge:

I solemnly pledge to work with dedication to preserve and strengthen the freedom and integrity of the nation.

I further affirm that I shall never resort to violence and that all differences and disputes relating to religion, language, region or other political or economic grievances should be settled by peaceful and constitutional means.

In their well being and prosperity alone lies my happiness.

Long live my india! bless you!

your true and loyal citizen, child, well wisher,
nivetha

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, August 13, 2005

hey guys..i m in a damn bad bad mood today...so sucky mann my results...so bloody pissed off w myself...anw, da day started off well...had p.e fer an hr...had fun..we played soccer...nic, ainul, me, shuxin, shuxian, rachael n desiree we in 1 team... had all da fun n den had all da bad news in da rest of da day in order to overwhelm da fun i had...damn it! i suck at physics, chem n a maths...n i still have to mug 5 poems for my tamil lit test which is on dis friday at 4.45 pm...

i oso hv htl test on dis fri at 2.45 pm..muz prepare for tt too...life so sux...filled w test...stil hv chem surprise tests evry week..but in a way it is gd to hv tests...serves as a practise...but it is only good if it is not included in da damn C.A...haiz...so dis fri i hv abt 4 hrs of tests continuously...i still hv da bio project thesis to write..it must be at least 10,000 words...damn...hw m i gonna finish up evrything? i oso hv 2 english assignments to hand in next friday..one is a report on a newspaper article taken frm da forum section..another one is a argumentative essay which we hv bin doing fer a month or so, side by side learning the parts of an argumentative essay..den gt phy test on 23rd august and bio test on 18 august...n on my dear india's independence day which is on aug 15th, i m hving my tamil prelimz..haiz..anw, gtg nw..in it lab for it enrichment's second session..bye den...

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, August 03, 2005