arlow..

tuesdae..

yest had no mass run..had 2.4 final..aftr i finished, i got dehydrated n i was really v giddy until i cldnt stand..i wld like to thank all ppl hu helped me! my dearest classmates, my dear pltnmates, sir (mr samat), n my dearest councillors..(dhs, x-dhs n othr councillors)! thx fer u help, care n concern dearies...

had htl..was boring la (as usual)..managed to memorise sum pbl slides..also studied sum history fer todae's test...

wednesdae..

had pbl presentation todae..my form teacher is "soooo damn nice" lorh...she "passed" my group u noe..hw "nice of her"...she said.."i dun care if u all like me or not..u all better suck up to me todae cuz ur marks are all in my hands" i was boilin inside can?blackmail summore...fine..dun pass my grp..fine la..cld hv at least given 10/20..heartless soul..nvm...dis is called F-A-T-E..haiz...anw, better dan getting a ZERO rite? she was nvr satisfied w a single grp can? nw i understand y snr ari said wadeva she said...haiz..snr ari was rite..

anw, a BIG GOOD BYE to freaking PBL! n i m nvr gonna hv dis woman as my form teacher ever in my lifetym..

den left at 12.30 to go fer history test..only me n farz..den went fer lunch at 1.05 pm...met at mini forum at 1.30 pm..had da minister launchin thinggy's rehearsal..den went to canteen..was tokin w charmaine fer a while..den she hadta go..den was askin sakina n shaminah a few maths sums on congruent triangles(frm now on i shall call it da sleepin pill cuz it makes me sleep..)..den dey oso hadta go..den was sittin dwn w apurva, n readin lit novel..we happened to tok abt cricket..din no apurva was as crazy as me(in fact much much more crazier dan me) ovr cricket...den sabrina came baq frm her pft n apurva hadta go...den was readin da novel n den left at 5.15..went fer tuition..da teacher asked me to write 250 werds n i wrote 600 werds..i oso dunno hw lorh..she gave us 30 mins fer 250 werds of compo..n i wrote 600 werds in 20 mins..i think it is full of crapp..i m surely gonna fail tt paper..hahaz... 

anw, todae, whole day was feelin so pissed off..but dunno w wad la..even if i noe..i cant sae it here la..yar..n joy to da werld..i lost my voice..kena flu, cough, sore throat n fever..

i still hv history skit to do..my dance project..dance home werk, my own assignments n my tuition werk to do..n tmr hv lit test oso..

anw, todae is snr xiao yun's b dae..HAPPY B'DAE SNR!

okiez..
gtg
bubyee..


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, July 28, 2004

alo..

fridae wasnt tt bad la.., budden morning i woke up at 5.55 when my van cums at 6.05..aiyoah! rushed worse dan i do in ncc can? managed to go earlier dan i go on da other dayz..tt's da irony here..haha..den had sch as usual..aftr sch, htl was boring..

sat was worse..alarm clock rang..at 5.55 am..i switched it off n den slept again thinking tt it was 4.55 am can? den i woke up at 6.55 am n i tot it was 5.55 am..so i slept fer anthr 15 mins..den i realised it was 7.10 am! i was supposed to meet aish at da clementi mrt station's bus stop at 7.05 to go to htl centre in her dad's car fer oral which was at 7.45 am! i was damN late lorh! i was scared tt i wld b late fer oral..den rushed worse dan fri n left hse at 7.15.. went to take a cab..aiyoah! dis one anthr one la..cldnt get a cab until 7.30 am..den finally got one n reached htl centre at 7.50 am..i was so anxious lorh! my anxiety was luckily reduced when i realised i was quite early..

den went baq home, changed clothes n went to buona vista mrt station to meet aish to go to yee lyn's hse..had bravo awards..damN fun man! i was given miss enthu 2004! i nearly puked can? had fun playing water bombs..n had a nice party w ncos n dear pltnmates..yee lyn's hse reminded me of my hse in india..it is so exactly like tt..haiz..home sick again. anw, BRAVO 04 RAWKS MY WORLD MAN!

sun was studyin da whole day la..mostly hist..did sum maths..n den sum science..

this morn wasnt feelin quite ok..i threw-up in sch..my last nite's dinner..den was damN hungry during recess..so ate sand-wich..n den puked aftr recess..den lunch oso puked a bit of dem..aiyoah..n my stomach ache n head ache killed me can?! i think i was hving a migraine..

luckily todae had only 3 preiods of lessons..morn, first 3 periods of english..actually counted as 2 cuz ms goh came only at 8.20 n den she was advising my class fer anthr period..so we did werk only fer 1 period..actually wadeva ms goh said was true..anw, aftr tt, mrs lim din cum fer maths cuz she hadta grade a class' PBL..so no maths..den recess..den hist, miss neo was absent frm sch..so no hist! yay! no hist test todae..i can prepare more! den had chinese period(free period la)..den aftr sch did my own stuff..so sien oredi..decided to go hme at 5.30..hv a sense of satisfaction cuz i spent my day quite fruitfully..so i dun feel tt irritated todae as i normally will be..

one impt quote frm ms goh which i find is very very true.."the taste of success is so sweet tt u wld wanna taste it repeatedly"

anw,
gtg
bubbye!


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, July 26, 2004

hie...

yest ",

da day started w maluation can? morning i was da only one wearin an ethnic costume in my whole class...den eunice din cum..su min was asked to go n replace eunice as eunice was supposed to go fer da costume parade in da monrning at da hall...den su min refused to go alone n dragged me along w her...

den went n asked mrs goh watta do n she grubled here n dere n den scolded us fer cumin at da last min..wad she expect us to do lorh! as tho we wanna go lidat..my whole class forced us to go..no choice wad..din wan my class's reputation to spoil..den on stage, when it was supposed to b my turn, mrs goh read my name as 'navita' n i tot it was sumone else..n summore dere were so many ppl tokin so loud until i cldnt hear wad she was sayin..da echo anthr one..played a trick on my ears..luckily hse nvr sae my class. if not wld hv embarrassed myself like xiao can?

den all da ppl wearin indian costumes were asked to go n i hadta go..i hid behind...u noe smth? me n su min went w out even noein tt it was a contest lorh! we tot it was juz walkin here n dere...hahaz..(L-A-M-E)

den stayed baq to do hw, n den rushed fer tuition..

todae...

dere was no mass run todae..den had sci, den went fer pe..i wasnt takin pe anw, since i m still on exemption frm pe..saw diana, sgt calissa, candy n deir whole class dancin..diana v cute leh.. ;) den had free period n den recess..we hadta go baq to class to clean our class room..den had lit..was late fer lit n hadta explain to miss chan tt we went late fer recess as we were cleanin da classroom..den had eng n den maths...

first maths period had maths test..i sucked at it man..was so damN difficult can? i practised so much! nvm, i feel satisfied as i took my efforts(dis satisfaction wld last only until i get baq da markz la..) den stayed baq to do hw..actually stayed baq fer PBL..dearest grp members 4gotta bring power pt n web page..so dey went to tess's hse while i din cuz i hadta reach hme by 5.45..tess told me it wld take us a v long tym to reach her hse..arnd 3.30 or 4 lidat..den i hv to leave at least at 4.15 frm her hse..so tess said it wld b better fer me to stay in sch n do my werk..den co-incidentally, when i finished my hw n was packin up, saw F&N n her frenz cumin..den left sch..wanted to walk..budden kairiya, jean n farz forced me to take bus w dem..i told dem i wld take wadeva bus tt comes first..den 111 came n i boarded it..den got dwn at commonwealth n took mrt..wanted to take 105 frm c'wealth budden it w;d take a v long tym..so took mrt..

nw at home, aftr a refreshing bath..gonna study history l8r..got test on monday aftr sch.. den hv to practise sum maths, muz study sum science oso..aftr tt muz go n do htl wb, sum xtra exercise la..den muz go n bathe again in order to eat n sleep freshly..hahaz..ok, gtg..

bubbyee!


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, July 22, 2004

so pissed!
 
i wanted to go fer htl on tym at least todae...i was in da mood of learning evry thing w keen interest...so me n aish decided to go...so we called tt person to go w us oso la..den she sae leave at 4...wth lor..we leave at 4 den we reach dere at 4.50 or 4.55 can? i cant stand da teacher's naggin...dey cant stand my naggin rite..hw can dey expect me to stand his naggin? summore i was in such a gd mood as evrything todae was goin alrite...
 
i was so kind to let her make her own decisions n cum wheneva she wanted...so we left w out her..den aish dunno go where...so aftr searchin fer aish n since i cldnt find her, i left..wth man..saw tt person at da 139 bus stop n said hi again n she nvr replied...i tot she pissed off w smth else..den understood tt she pissed off w me fer leavin w out her...such a silly reason can? if she pissed off w me fer dis, i hv so many othr reasons to b pissed off w her...many incidents, i asked her to sit at a particular place  during free period n she demanded to go to anthr place...den she said, if u wan u go dere n sit..n she said tt she was so nice to let me make my own decisions..n i was so nice to follow her whereeva she wanted to go..
 
todae, i let her make her own decisions, but she was da one hu din wanna cum w me..well i din force her to follow me..den she end up pissed off w me..wad is dis! she has her rights to make her own decisions n i hv my own ritez to make my own decisionz..well if she pissed off w ani othr chap, i really cant b bothered..but y me? nvm, i m not gonna give up mi self-respect n go n beg at her feet to tok to me..all dese days, she onli knew my nice side..i m oso naturally hot-tempered but i controlled it so much fer her sake...todae she realli tested mi patience..i was realli v pissed off man! i mean what i say! i mean wat i mean! i say wad i mean! i oredi came n toked to u, u din wanna tok to me..well if u understand tt u were at fault, i m always dere fer u as a symbol of our true frenship..dunno if u considered ur frenship w me as a real, true n genuine one..but well, i did...i will still b dere..go think fer urself on hu is wrong..u did dis to me(mebbe purposely), but i did it to u in accident..u cldnt even take it n u r pissed off w me.. i m not sayin tt i m perfect..no one is perfect..u told me my mistakes n i m still trying to correct dem..nw i m tellin u ur mistakes..
 
my expectations of u: i wld like to make dis clear to u..u expected me to behave in a certain way..in da same way, i oso hv a certain expectations on hw my true fren shd b..last tym when u told me my faults, i din scold u..da nxt morning, tho i was hurt at ferst, i was da one hu came n toked to u n i m da one hu is trying to change myself instead of justifyin my acts further...so wad i expect is, u shd cum n tok to me ferst..i wun mind if u r pissed off in da beginning, i noe hw it feels..but i hope u wun maintain ur self-ego(i dun wanna call it self-esteem as self-ego is smth tt stops u frm apologisin to sum one even tho u noe u r at wrong) n tok to me..i dun expect u to apologise..but juz b normal frenz as we were...n u noe i m more hot-tempered dan u? juz tt i din show it out in frnt of u all...if i start screamin, i dunno hw ppl hu noe me as a naggy  n sensitive gal wld react...u had ur self-respect n so u din beg me to tok to u..in da same way, i oso hv my self-respect n i m not gonna beg u to tok to me..juz reflect on urself...
 
it wld hv bin v easy fer me to say sorry to u n hv a gd frenship w u..but in tt case, i m unfair to both, u n me..in wad way m i unfair to u:i m not givin u an opportunity to noe ur mistakes n correct urself..unfair to miself: i noe i said dis "true frenz r da ones hu accept me as i m" but u din cuz u exepected me to change a bit...n u din give in cuz u werent at fault..in da same way, if i apologise, i m givin in fer smth which is not my fault..
 
i may not b as matured as u to advise u as i m 372 days younger dan u..wad wld u do if ur younger sis expects u to change?(i noe u will give her a tight slap la) but i hope u wun do tt to ur fren hu is younger dan u...yep...juz think fer urself...
 
all dese may sound v lame n silly, but as u told me, "altho it is a v small thing, it wld make a big dif if u change"..u r in da same boat as i was..so pls try to change
 
sry if i hv hurt u or insulted u or scolded u...i wld juz like to re-emphasise: go reflect on urself...
 
anw, cumin to todae...
 
nth much la..had music..had a fun tym dancin w my swollen ankle..hahaz..aiyah, den went fer htl l8r la..no mood oredi..my gd mood todae was spoilt by smth..so restless rite nw..
 
bubbye... 





posted by battle between mind and emotions at Tuesday, July 20, 2004

hie...
 
sundae...
 
YAY! i survived thru da parade w out fainting..i din even squat dwn...ENDURANCE AND DETERMINATION helped me succeed...all da way thru! i m so damN happy...
 
had NCC Day Parade at SAFTI MI...it rox man...as far as i noe, 4 of us cried...msg, sgt anita, kelly n me...msg was oredi emotional n when she saw sgt anita cry, she cried more...likewise, i was oredi so emotional..den when i saw kelly cry i cried more...
 
we felt so honoured...in front of so many ppl, da ppl cumin in da parachutes, one of dem, carried CRESCENT flag...i clapped like xiao until my hands were numb n red...frm dat moment onwards itself i started crying...n my hair stood up as in front of such a big crowd, da guest of honour, while makin his speech, mentioned about Mahatma Gandhi Ji...WOW!
 
n da reasons y i cried was cuz when da line "this is where, i won't be alone!" was sung, i tot of da care n concern n company provided by my dearest n most respected encik, msg, staffs, sgts, corporals n my dearest of dearest platoonmates...n i cried...n dis part of da line "dis is my family, dese r my frenz" was sung, i oso cried, thinkin of my platoon's unity n me as a part of da crescent ncc family n i cried...i wish my pltn will remain dis united forever...BRAVO 04! u all r gr8 ppl! i luv y'all! dearest platoon mates! u all rawk to da core man!
 
my dad was dere on da parade square takin pics while we were marching off...my mum came to da FUP immediately aftr da parade n sabot me..she started takin pics of me n i din realise tt until eshwaaree said...den i covered my face n ran away...
 
den went hme w my parents in da shuttle bus tt was shuttlin frm da MI to da jurong point...were on our way to da pizza hut n i saw cai hua...toked to her fer a while n den said bubbye to her n followed my parents...had a nice dinner n den came back homw, packe mi bag n was v eager to watch da news...so went to bed at 11.00 pm...
 
mondae...
 
todae nth much la..f&n oso nvr cum to sch n i oso nvr c mangosteen...budden had a v hard tym managin apurva man...she was bullying me w yellow hat la...poor thing la yellow hat...anw..yap, so nth much...n v few hw oso..
 
went hme w badd...den rushed fer physiotherapy...n da doctor has given me a letter fer exemption frm physical activities fer 1 wk as i sprained my ankle on fridae...n nw i m baq hme..rotting....no mood to do hw oso...ferst tym i hv bin so moody n sleepy...fer da ferst tym i felt sleepy during maths lor...was learning abt congruent triangles...i usually feel v interested during maths but fer da ferst tym i felt sleepy...two continuous weeks no rest was...satudaes n sundaes all occupied...mebbe dis sundae i m free...budden may hv tuition...
 
anw, hvnt started on webpage...my dear grp members la...haiz...
 
anw...now my foot is inside a pot of hot water, to relieve my ankle's sprain n pain...i cant even stand dis pain...hw on earth cld da victims of kumbagonam sch's fire accident hv tolerated? poorthing lorh!
 
ok, gtg
bubbye...


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, July 19, 2004

alo...
 
fridae...
 
morning woke up damN late lorh! i usually wake up at 5 n dis morning i woke up at 6.40 can..i think i noe y...cuz last nyte, my parents directly went to my cuz's hse as it was her b dae, frm deir work place.so i had to wait until 2 am to get my maths test paper signed n to get my pocket money fer todae...so i ended-up sleeping at 3.00 am.i guess in mi sleepiness, i 4gotta set da alarm clock. so i woke up at 6.40 am lorh! i rushed worse dan i do in NCC, n left mi hse at 6.55, took a cab n luckily, by god's grace, i reached sch at 7.05am...my heart was really thumping very very hard lorh! i was damn scared...summore lat nyte had a dream of gettin booked as i was late...tt was when i woke up...
 
den had taf run.hadta run 3 rns arnd big carpark.ran two rnds n guess wat happened?! u noe my ankle dere got da permanent injury rite?i sprained tt part again lorh! n it immediately b came v swollen...i din noe hw i was gonna spend my rest of da day...den sumhw managed my way to da council meeting in frnt of da flag pole...n den juz remembered had sci practical plannin test...so had a "wonderful" time rushin baq to class...n den had maths...so sad mrs lim din cum todae...so had sum sums to do n den did our own stuff...l8r went fer recess, den d&t, n den CS ...
 
mr sem visited us! we all clapped n cheered like mad when he entered...den we all started complaining to him abt our "dearest" form teacher mrs gam...he was lyk "wateva it is still give her da respect as ur form teacher n bear w her", den we said "we respect her but she dsnt repect us" n so on la...den we were released at 1.40pm, slowly managed my way baq to class n den went to canteen....guess wat. my lunch was a sand wich n nth else. den went fer speech day rehearsal...
 
wah lao! so disappointing lorh! took so much efforts to learn wad i was supposed to do at da prize-giving table n den ended up dey sae, da cert-givin is at 9 plus lorh! initially we were told tt da cert-givin was at da end ...so we tot aftr our hmt oral we can cum baq...aiyoah! now dey said it is at 9 or 9.30...so obviously even if we ask to go fer da oral ferst, n rush baq, we wun b able to reach on tym..so dey r finidn replacements frm sec 3...so on speech day, i will neither b goin fer guard of honour nor cert-givin...all in all, i wun b able to go fer speech day at all...
 
i hadta do all da sorting out stuff, carrying stuff n so on w my aching, swollen ankle...but no pt la..not gonna go fer final dae...
 
watched da news! OMG! 80 lives juz gone lidat! i guess u all shd hv heard abt da fire accident in a school in india n 90 lives(latest update) r gone! n dey dun even hospital facilities lorh! dey all r suffering so much n i m here hvin a relatively more comfortable life! i saw da news n i had night mares last night...dey showed pupils all burnt lying on top on one another, abt 15 of dem burnt beyong recognisation! n 15 parents still hvnt gotten deir childrens' dead bodies can?! since dere wasnt any space in da so called hospital, burtn pupils were lying on da ground, groaning in agony! my whole family was crying last nite at 11.00 pm while watchin da news on sun tv...it really melted my heart...in fatc it broke my heart...da pain, da suffering all dose primary 3, 4 n 5 kids wld hv gone thru b4 dying...horrible man! dey hv died such a horrible agonising death. all dese juz cuz dey r poor n da area dey were living was suffering frm poverty..tho dey were poor n deir parents were poor, dey had da hunger to study...n dis was wad dey got as a reward, death! dey paid a penalty of deir lives, 90 lives fer being born to poor ppl...n da gift dey got fer deir eagerness to study despite deir poverty...i shd treasure my life in s'pore...i shd make a big difference in india...i m gonna do it! i can do it! fer MY COUNTRY! india is gonna improve v soon! i b lieve in her, bharatha maadha! jayathi jayathi bharatha maadha, mudha keela, nikilamaatha, varaniratha, natha jana sukithaa, jayathi! jayathi! jayathi! n i hope s'pore wil oso play a part in makin india a better place as s'pore n india r v gd frenz...

saturdae...
 
anw, todae went fer ncc w my ankle...tot it wld b ok.in da end, it was troubling me n i hadta fall out...den went to mobil, gobbled up mi lunch, n den rushed fer dance class. came hme, washed my face, refreshed miself n went fer dance class in 10 mins...danced w my stoopid ankle, now it is swollen aftr todae's strainin activities...tmr got parade summore...
 
anw, dance rox! ncc rox! crescent rox! creznc rox! 
 
i asked my whole family to cum n my dad n grandma agreed...so 99.9% dey r cumin tmr to watch da nnc day parade...unless smth realli cocks-up n makes dem unable to cum tmr...i hope nth liddat happens...

ookie dookie, needta go n prepare my uniform, my own hw fer myself to do, n other stuff...
 
bubbye!



posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, July 17, 2004

alo..

anw, todae got baq maths test paper...pls work out dis quadratic equation in order to find out my markz..hahaz..
x squared-39x+380=0, where da higher value is da total marks n da lower value is da markz tt i got! hv a nice tym werkin it out...hahaz

called dad frm sch to tell him mi markz n he said, ask me wateva u want n i will get u by next wk...n den i said no 1) their priceless love 2) the mind to work harder, 3) the heart to accept successes and failures and 4) peace...my dad said, all dese will b given to u..now wad d u want frm da shops tt i can use money n buy? tell me n i said bicycle as sum one had stolen my old one...n dad said tt he will get me b4 nxt thursday...woohoo! thanx dad!

btw, todae kena mood swings like xiao man...one moment was so happie n da other moment was so pissed...was doin hw in sch n den left...came home...quite peaceful todae as i m satisfied w my markz...

gtg
bubbye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, July 15, 2004

hie...

saturdae...

morning had oral...aiyohz...my conv was horrible...but my pic n reading was ok as da pic was abt smth regardin ncc, war n so on...
den had nc...

had marching...marchin w msg again...rox man! n den had lessons on IFC by kelly n wai man...dey were quite good la... i tell u arh...learning lesson w msg again...rox!!! n den we all had a mock test by msg, n we all turned it into an open-bk test..hahaz...den she made us do squats w our hands on our ears like kindergarten kids lidat...hahaz...she rox!

den our ncos came baq n took ovr...den had marchin...marching rox!
n den i had to leave at 2.30 pm as i had to go fer dance class...
dance was fun! learnt new steps in jatiswaram...gonna finish it very very soon...den aftr tt had a bath...den kena stomach ache sia...i wasnt feeling well at all...i juz went to bed straight away...

sundae...

morning woke up quite early to do my number 3 uniform...luckily i had oredi dun mi collar 3 dayz baq...

den went to mobil to meet pltn mates...den fell in at da bus-stop
aftr sum tym...den went to da SAFTI MI...horrible sia! kena stomach ache sia...den i really cldnt take it...den sum corporals, n mi pltn mates asked me if i was ok n aisyah asked mi to report sick...den ma'am gowri asked mi to sit dwn dere...den when it was almost tym, i went baq to da pltn...den had da ferz rehearsal n i was hving da stoopid stomach ache through out lorh...den cpl zuraidah, aisyah, cpl yi zhen, fengy n sum others asked mi to squat dwn...

den a sir came n asked me "nivetha u ok onot?" i was shocked to daeth man! hw ds he even noe mi name? ppl if dey usually c da name tag, only deir surname will b dere...but in my case my surname is ferst la..but still hw ds he noe tt tt is mi name? i think he saw it during da camp-feast i think...cuz i saw dat sir in camp-feast...anw...he so mean lorh! dunno if he meant to b mean or funni la...he said "last nite u went dicotheque isit? mabok seh..." i was like...OMG! y is he sayin dis n malu-ing me in front of so many ppl? lidat lorh...he said dis cuz my eye balls were rollin badly under mi eye-lids lorh! (smth like professor mad eye moody's magical eyes in harry potter, hahaz...) i was feeling very very giddy la...

den he gave me sum water to drink...n den ma'am gowri oso was giddy n evry one went to her n attended to her...i hope ma'am gowri is alrite...den she brought me to da grand stand n made sgt li ping sit b side me to accompany mi...ma'am is so nice! she rox man! she was da one hu convinced me into ncc! i still remember wat she said while recruiting me "dun wry...i will be dere through out to guide u in ur 4 yrs..."hahaz...she is soooo nice! anw aftr tt staff su ngin, sgt huey ying, sgt anita, sgt xin yu n
sum othr sgts i think, came n asked mi if i was alrite...

n u noe my hair stood up when i saw da crescent flag being carried by da parachute-ppl(my own invention of werd) clapped n cheerd like xiao can...my hands b came red n i lost mi voice...i was so proud, so honoured, so happy, felt da commitment to ncc...
i had a feeling tt my pltn has oso contributed fer da achievement of da best unit...tho it may not b ture or wad la...aiyah dunno la...

n den joined in for da second rehearsal...was quite okay la... den got up da bus n went to redhill mrt station...da bus went past
da area where i live...it was in a walkin distance lorh...budden i cant ask dem to drop mi dere wad...den went all da way to redhill n all da way back to clementi...

anw...i wld juz like to thank all da ppl hu took very gd care of mi n made me feel comfortable...thankyou ma'am, sirs, staff, sgts, corporals n most impt of all...my dearest of dearest platoon mates! i m greatly indebted to u all!

i still had da stomach ache...so was roamin abt here n dere, restless, not noeing watta do...n den at night went fer a walk w my family...n my mum had given two punjabi suits fer stitchin fer me n two fer herself. dey loook da same...uniformity between me n my mum...thz mum! dey hv also bought me anthr punjabi suit n a shirt worn on top of jeans...thz mum n dad!

mondae...

had sch todae...morning recieved my councillor badge frm mr gau. he tried to pronounce mi name properly on da podium...

my week ends were totally gone...so i cldnt do mi history hw...so todae hadta do dem during recess lorh...hurried to go n buy a cheese sandwich n den was eating while doin my hw...farz helped me...b cuz of her, i was able to finish dem juz b4 ms audrey neo came lorh! thz farz! u had prevented a maluation for mi...thz!

den had lessons n den came chinese period...i wanted to go to da study pavillion...budden since had ppl dere, we went to da tables in front of da staircase dere...den rushed fer lunch n rushed home...hadta go fer physiotherapy at 3.20...

reached hme at 3.00, had a bath n den rushed fer physiotherapy...
saw dr benjamin...juz came to noe tt he was da UDI of bukit panjang secondary school lorh! he asked me how i got da permanent injury last tym n i said it was during ncc...so he knew my cca...
todae he asked me abt ncc n ended up tellin me he was da UDI lorh...n den dere was anthr guy hu was in da nxt bed of mine while doin on of da physiotherapy la...

den he said "alo"...i tot he was sec 4 or jc 1 la...den he said "guess mi age?" i said "16 or 17?"...n den he said "wow! i look so young arh? d u noe tt i m 22?" i was like "OMG! really? okay...glad to noe tt..." his name is Khairul or smth lidat...he looked so brotherly...u noe hu eva i c rite, dey seem so brotherly or sisterly to me lorh...den i asked him wad had happened to his knee...he said "soccer" ...den i nodded la...n den i asked him wad he was doin n he said "NS" den my level of respect fer him b came v high lorh..i had a feeling tt i m supposed to maintain a dist w him n cant tok so freely lor...

den he was tellin me tt i shld treasure my sec sch life n i wld hate it when i go jc or anywhere else...he was advisin in da way my elder bro wld advise me if i had one lorh! elder bros r usually
very protective ovr deir sisters...i can only trust oone of my elder cousins to b da typical elder bro...tt is da one hu got state 3rd in india...

den he asked me if i had completed mi part b camp n i said yes...n
den he asked me i was a lancecorporal n i nodded...i asked him wad was his rank n he said none n said tt he juz had joined NS...

den he hadta go n he said bubbye n i said in reply...den now at home...hvta do maths if i m feeling alrite cuz now still hvin stomach ache...

bubbye...

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, July 12, 2004

hie...

GOOD LUCK FER UR ORAL EVRYONE!

morning when i was in my van near sumwhere between tiong bahru n redhill la...i think it is most prob tiong bahru. it was in front of da condo near da tiong bahru plaza...i saw an IMM bus crash into a SENTOSA bus, n tt SENTOSA bus crashed into an SBS bus, bus no 196...dere was dis car in front of dese 3 buses, whose rear was very badly damaged...n da entire of its aluminium body was crushed to pieces...u noe my stomach felt empty fer a moment?! i felt as tho my intestines were out n my empty stomach was churning all around...dere was dis man hu was lying in front of da buses, fully injured...n his whole body was full of blood. dere were sum ppl beside him, prob callin da ambulance as dey were usin deir hand phones(sounds like i m practisin fer my oral as i hv all my interpretations, hahaz...)i prayed tt nth wld happen to tt man lorh...so poor thing. it was a very very serious accident...my van had juz escaped...

i think tiong bahru is an accident prone area...cuz my van oso goes to bukit purmei...n i saw sum glass pieces shattered on da floor of da entrance lor...i gues bt purmei is oso sum where near tiong bahru rite?haiz...

anw...had fun playing w coloured lights in da science lab...den had maths, recess, D&T n CS...den rushed to hv lunch n den had to hurry to htl centre...da teacher arh...i tell ya he is damN sickening can? he told us to finish da whole bk at da last min n i took all da efforts to finish it...u noe wad he did? he was like..."cld hv answered dis in a better way. y is ur sentence structure so horrible?" n so on lorh...it seemed alrite to me n even to my frenz...wat is his prob lorh...den he juz returned my marked bks...but he forgot tt he was juz returning aftr marking...den he scolded me..."y u din do ur correctionz arh? lazy rite?" pls la...he juz giving back, hw he xpect me to do corrections arh? i got magic hand issit? take da bk frm his bag, do corrections n den put back? he called me rebellious n lazy to do my werk u noe?!

i tried my bezt xplaining to him n he wldnt blieve...den i gave up...he din even say sry lorh! so sickening...

n den dis mrs gam anthr one...dis morning made me book 3 of my classmatez fer not bringing thermometers can? mr gau oredi said tt he was gonna get da namez of dose hu nvr bring n gonna give dem a demerite...she still asked me to book lorh! i think dey r gonna kena anthr one frm mr gau...

yeah! tmr got nc! but b4 tt got oral liaoz...den goin fer nc n den hafta rush fer mi dance class...den my dad wanted to go out sum where...den i still hafta do all my hw...he still dare gimme htl hw todae u noe...he is not even letting us hv tym to breathe can? he even asked me, "d u haf interest in cumin here anot?"pls la...if i m not interested y wld i even go dere in da ferz place? haiz...

gtg
bubbye...

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, July 09, 2004

hie...

mondae...

granny, parents advise one by one on da same thing for 5 hrs altogether...i was sittin like a tree trunk on da floor n juz listening...like an idiot...haiz...

tuesdae...

morning had fever n i vomitted at home b4 leaving...so i ended-up hving an empty stomach...endured thru mass run...budden i was a bit giddy...den aftr abt 1 1/2 hrs... had PE n mr samat asked us to run rnd da parade sq 4 tymz as fast as possible n da big carpark 2 rnds in 8 mins...i managed to finish da 4 rnds...budden when i was halfway running to da carpark, my stomach pain increased like xiao n den i was damN giddy...den i juz collapsed on to da floor...ai zhen n farz brought me in front of da music room...saw my pltn mate sri dere...she said since she wanted to b cum a medic...she wanted to take care of me...den she asked me to drink hot milo n i refused...den farz bought sum othr drink n i drank it...den ms sharon goh came n asked me if i was ok...n den she bought me hot water...so nice of her!

THANKYOU FARZANAH, AI ZHEN, SRI, AND OF COURSE, MS SHARON GOH!

den went for higher tamil. da teacher is so irritating lorh! he practically did only 5 or 6 exercises w us in class from our htl work bk...n den he nvr even told us to finish it b4 hols...on da first day of htl in semester 2, he asked us to finish da whole bk can?so irritating! but no choice...hafta do it wad...my eng not tt gd...so muz continue htl...haiz...

den came home n packed bag n den went to bed, skipping dinner...

wednesdae...

no running tt dae...had a nice free period...hahaz...poor F&N! her frenz bullied her by asking her to sit down dere were me n farz were sitting...dey bullied her so much can...nvm..den stayed back n to do antigone acting rehearsal, w all da costumez... den me n farz went to mobil...had a pleasant shock! saw mangosteen! wheee!! she was smiling away...hahaz...so chio! n den came home.

thursdae...

had no mass run...dere was supposed to b a councillor-badge-giving
ceremony...but da rain spoilt it! it alwaes rains at da wrong tym lorh! den had science n yellow hat had da same science period...hahaz...den went for PE....mr samat asked us to run 8 rounds arnd da parade sq for warm up...den we had to run rnd da rotunda...den went for chinese period...i min free period...den had recess...

we had antigone dramatisation...we had to act out...we went to change into our costume...saw F&N juz b4 acting lorh! i went so blur k...den went inside da music rm...n it was our turn to act...i tot juz acting...wah lao..dis ms chan arh...last lesson's actors were not taken pictures of...muz she take photos of us todae? haiz...summore she said she is gonna post dem in first class lorh!she oso said my costume was dignified...looked like an ancient king...hahaz...i din think so lorh! i tot our grp was gonna screw up...budden was actually v nice...tho at first i was nervous, i was ok when we gotta da middle of da play...

finally our play ended and ms chan asked us to pose for a closing up picture...i was creon, farz was antigone, sui ying was haemon, jingnan was ismene n guard, amanda was chorus n ruiling was messenger n guard...hahaz...nice play...had a fun tym...ms chan said we acted well...except for messenger n haemon hu were quite soft la...

den had eng...ms goh sabotached me to tok abt da pic...i had nth to sae abt it lorh! my partner's pic was so easy lorh...den had maths...had maths test at da last period...wasnt tt bad...wasnt tt gd...was ok la...den was stayin back n was doin hw...den was searching fer mi NCOs...cldnt find dem....i hadta tell dem i wld b goin late fer activity as i hv my oral on dis sat...den went n asked mangosteen! she was so nice! so chio! den she suggested sum place to go n find dem...den i went n finally found her...n settled da matter...

anw, strawberry scolded me can? she showed me black face n dao me lorh! nvm...i cant b bothered abt her...hahaz...

went to search for farz aftr getting v fed up n on my way dis mrs gam gimme werk to do in pat n i hadta go all da way to pat lorh! 4th storey leh...aiyoah...den saw farz...FINALLY! den left n went to mobil n den took 132...den aish realised tt she left her plastic bag of council tie, her mom's slippers, her antigone costume n many other stuff...den we went back...i m a nice fren of her's mah...so accompanied her all day way back to da bus stop in da rain, gettin drenched...we walked back...i tried blah blah method fer aish to find her stuff...finally when we reached dere...it was dere! so mi blah blah method werked aftr all! n den took 111, got down at holland drive n took 105...den l8r was rushing to catch 282 but cldnt lor! by juz 1 second! i ran n i slipped, so i started walkin...den i go stand dere in front of da bus...da driver juz ignored me n went lor! den waited fer da next one n now i m at home...gonna bathe fer da 3rd tym fer da day...

bubbye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, July 08, 2004

hie

fridae...

had normal lessons...den went for workout challenge rehearsal...den had da actual thing...it was our first performance as a pltn in front of da whole sch... for da first performance, it wasnt tt bad aftr all...we got 5th...i m congratulating my own pltn...CONGRATULATIONS BRAVO 04! BRAVO 04 ROCKZ! we oso din hv enough tym to prac...not bad la... den went for htl n den aftr tt came home...changed n went for a dinner at ganges restaurant...it was a b'dae party of my mum's colleague's daughter... den came back hme n set my collar of no. 3 n went to sleep at 1 am...

saturdae...

woke up at 7.00 to prepare my no. 3 uniform...polished my boots... n den ironed my uniform... n den met aish at clementi n went to kallang together fer SYF...i was in fer da first rehearsal...den dey split us up in to two grps...dose hu came fer 6 n more rehearsals n dose hu came fer 4 n less rehearsals...n da second grp was mainly made up of crez i think...we fell in separately... at dat tym i saw all our sch band members cumin...i saw sui ying, jo ee, annabella, amanda, dawn n many others...dey cldnt resist waving to dem...but so sad i cldnt wave back...but feel proud cuz tt is wat we r supposed to do...den dey asked for 6 volunteers...we let da part Cs go...

den dey said we were reserves...aftr we were sent back to da shade...i broke down...my pltn mates all were v sad but i was da only one hu cried n cried a lot...realli a LOT...was so disappointed...den went to watch da syf...aftr evry thing finished...one of da bands tt din win, Bowen's...started showing deir capabilities n were showing deir aggressiveness by playing fast tunes...so touching n saddening... da gals in da first row cried so much until dey had a hard tym playing deir instruments lorh...dey were so red lorh...so poor thing...

den we all walked to kallang n me aish n yee lyn left first...den saw yellow hat in da mrt so close to me...so sad dey got down at bugis...den me n aish got down at clementi n went to macs...had a burger each n had a round arnd da clementi central while aish was waiting fer her dad to cum dere n pick her up...den came home...dad took pics of me in no 3...den went to bed at 1.00am...

sundae...

morning woke up to find myself lying down on my sis's lap...she was stroking my hair gently n was pattin me on mi back...i snuggled cosily against her when it is supposed to b da othr way round...I LOVE MY SISTER!

den had tuition fer 3 hrs...i tot tmr hv sch n packed my bag...juz to realise tt tmr is a holiday as a result of youth day...so sad tmr is a holiday...hahaz...nvm...

anw, got a new ph at home...very keewwt design!it has a radio, clock, alarm, date n it is like standing on four legs?yep...v keewt design!

gtg...bubbye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, July 05, 2004

dis is a song taught in my sister's childcare centre...although it is taught for nursery kids, we as grown-ups, have a lotta things to learn frm it...dis song is actually dedicated to Sri Sai Baba...dis is how it goes:

take a lesson from the sun
who shines his light on everyone
all the rain that falls on
every single shore.

no distinction of our races
all the colours of our faces
nature's gifts are there
for all men; rich or poor.

love all
serve all
understand that love and peace
is what we need

love all
serve all
in every single thought,
word and deed.

bear all and do nothing
hear all and say nothing
give all and take nothing
in return.

love is: giving and forgiving
self is: getting and forgetting
serve all in the
spirit of your love.

love all
serve all
understand that love and peace
is what we need.

love all
serve all
in every single thought,
word and deed...

yep
bye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, July 02, 2004

HAPPY NCC DAY!YAY!

todae is nc day...budden my second nc day was commemorated w a silent drill...b cuz of da rain...so sad...anw NCC is 103 yrs old todae...morning my van was late...we were waiting for one of da gals 4 a v long tym...so i got out of da van in da middle n wanted to take a taxi...i did so...i still ended-up reaching sch late...

new teachers...not tt much...i was juz made clear abt hu r my new teachers.haha.sci we hv mrs goh...not ms lee anymore...den our form teacher oso changed...not ms audrey neo animore...now is ms seow...she is oso our music teacher...den PE we hv MR SAMAT...PE is gonna b a horror for me...he made my class mates run 16 rnds round da parade sq n 2 rnds in 2 min 20 sec. me n kel weren't running cuz we were in no 3...hist is ms neo...

we have new COs...ma'am anna cheng n sir lee boon keng...n da same old two COs sir chan boon leong n ma'am goh...ma'am goh is my eng teacher n ma'am anna cheng was my form teacher n geog teacher last yr...sir chan boon leaon mebbe my D&T teacher...hahaz...so 3 of my COs hv taugh me, r teaching n will b teaching me...

anw rehearsal yest was extra tiring...i had to miss two impt things...i had changed my dance lesson frm sat to wed for da sake of rehearsals n syf parade...den yest i had to cancel it to stay in da parade...was standing beside yellow hat..den we left at 6 n i reached my tuition centre at 7 when my class was at 6.15...but i managed to catch up.

den came back home at 8.15 om...bathed n started preparing my no 3 uniform...was damN tired...my toe with da missing nail hurt like xiao can...n den da bee sting oso hurt a lot...i oso got 3 blisters on my left foot...went to sleep at 11.30...

todae was a v nice day...wearing no 3 uniform...anw juz heard tt NAPFA test is on da 3rd week of july...haiz...no wonder mr samat is training us so much. n den had antigone meeting until 2.45...left sch w kairiya, farz, aish n jean...saw mangosteen at da bus stop! den saw asyiqin approaching...i asked her to join us...she is v nice n kind...had a nice tym tokin w her...now at home...

anw new tym table is so boring...esp mon...hv 3 periods of eng lor
last semseter we din hv any 3 periods except for creative arts n homec...but last yr we had...buddun we had 2 periods of eng den recess den eng again...tt was better as we had a break...den hv, hist tt day lor...all days r so sleepy...i hate da new tym table...so boring...i m trying my best to stay awake during class hrs...

anw 1st week of sch is so stressful...i had five rehearsals to face on the first day of sch.:
- council investiture rehearsal
- ncc day commemoration(in sch) rehearsal
- workout challenge(aerobics) rehearsal for youth day
- ncc day parade(at da SAFTI military institute) rehearsal
- SYF rehearsal

on top of all dese, i had to finish my dance theory hw, music hw, the 3 leftover hol hw, stoopid htl hw, 3 tuitions to go, filing of all tamil ws, assignments given by my parents n finally assignments given by myself to myself(LAME but essential to improve)...now i m a bit relaxed...
ok
gtg
bye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, July 02, 2004