halo....

comp was jammed....now in farz's hse usin her comp aftr htl...chattin w bro...

wednesday, didnt mean to follow anyone.....actually i was supposed to stay in sch until 5 n den aftr tt go for tuition...dis farz lah...so bad she wanted to go hme....w kairiya n shaf...so i decided to stay in sch....i started readin my bk...sum ppl were attractin attention....

den dey left oredi...i was so engrossed in da story until i forgot da surroundings...a construction worker came to me n put his hand on my shoulders....den i tot he wanted to ask me da way to a certain part of da sch since i was wearin a tie...den he asked me " wanna go out?" den i was totally freaked out lor.....dat was y i went out of sch rushin....wantin to catch up w farz n shaf n kairiya b4 any othr nonsense cld happen.....

my parents r so unreasonable...my mom came n picked me up frm htl centre on tues at 7.00 n brought me to da airport to send off my cousins...to india...den dey scolded me for showin a smiley face....so i bcame sad...den dey scolded me...den i show blank face dey scold me, i show black face or straight face dey still scold me.....i didnt even change my clothes lor...i was da only one in da whole changi airport, hu was in cgs uniform....so maluatin....den i ended up comin hme at 12 midnight....aiyoah!

yesterdae i went to aish's hse w farz, kairiya n malikaa, n of course aish lah...had a nice tym watchin movie...was leanin n lying on malikka...she was doin nonsense...hahaz....no lah..we r not crooks lah...juz hvin fun...enjoyin ourselves w out any risks...den came hme at 7.45 n den prepare for uniform checkin todae....

got back all papers except for geog.....i had 3 as last yr...dis yr drop to 1 a...but den da papers were relatively very difficult....i think i studied too much until i was confused n my brain was like rojak...budden all my marks r within da range i expected...cried until eyes hurt....very painful siah....

farz told me i was b havin like a mad person....she said i was laughin like a ghost n my face was oso like a ghost...it was i think juz b4 recess...n den i was still in tt state sum tym aftr recess....farz told me tt i wanted to go to da toilet n so she accompanied me....den she said tt i went inside n den gave a shrill screechy witch-like, ghost-like, undescribable laughter....i think farz was very freaked out....cuz i recovered frm my state, aftr washin my face again aftr recess, n i asked her wat was wrong...n y she treated me so differently....den farz started cryin n den my classmates n sum juniors told me tt i was b havin like a mad person....i infact even asked farz aftr recess n aftr recoverin, whether recess was ovr or not...farz was shocked! wah lao....now i feel so stupid n lame....hahahaz....farz told me i freaked out a lot of ppl, incldin my juniors...n i had to take such a long tym to convince farz lor....haiz...i realised i was in such a state b cuz i missed 2 marks to a2 for maths...dis is my first tym gettin b3 for maths lor...i shall try less harder as i tried too hard n panicked a lot n studied too much, endin up confusin myself lor....nvm

anyways... i hate aish lor....she got more dan me in a few subjects....

saw her aftr 3 whole days...she finally came to sch todae lor...budden first thing i heard in da morning was tt she has detention....i dun meant to make anyone jealous as tt person noes i love her in a sisterly way....muahahahahahazzz.....tmr hv to go for council photo takin....aftr tt goin for nc again....

anywaes, i wun b able to blog for anthr few days as my stupid internet is not workin....

gtg liaoz....farz naggin, usin ph line in farz's hse mah...
byeezz...

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, May 22, 2004

todae wasnt tt bad......

had taf run early in da morning.....den too tired until lost interest n spirits in interclass games which was da first event of da day......but had no choice but to play.....but had a hard tym my all my aches........hahaz.....nvm

den went for class photo taking.....my class was so noisy me n farz were screamin here n dere to keep dem quiet but we were unsuccessful lah......we ran up n down lookin for mrs gam.....to join us for in da photo......den cldnt find her.....in da end, she came abt 20 to 25 mins later.......den went for recess.....later went for life science practical workshop......had a fun tym, although our grp did most of da things, incldin da grp survey, w out me,farz n jazlyn......aiyah....dun care lah........den had fun doin da DNA test on onions n lookin at dem in da microscope.......

aftr tt we had free tym until 1.30, den came for lunch until 2.30.........den went for a snakes n ladders competition arranged by mrs gam.....aftr tt me n farz were roamin abt not noein watta do.....we did not wanna cum hme as it is so borin at hme....den we came to a decision........farz started doin her tuition hw n i was watchin her doin it......i think leaves cried......so sorry for her.......den when farz was at da finishin stage, we left sch....went to redhill mrt station n were chit-chattin for a while, den i m now at hme, bloggin aftr hvin a refreshin bath.....

tmr i think we r hvin a leadership training workshop n growing years.........i m not sure lah

dis is da second part of my blog entry, totally a flash back....or rather a recount.....how i started learning tamil.....(outta nth was reminded of dis)

i took hindi as my second lang. in K1(india), K2(india), P1(india), P2(in malaysia in Maz International school) n half of P3(in india).....i didnt noe how to read nor to write a single letter in tamil n i was doin quite well in hindi.......

den we had to move hse further away frm my sch(in india), as we bought our own hse n i had to change to a nearby matriculation school.....called All Angels Matriculation Higher Secondary School.....tt sch didnt hv hindi n i had no choice but to take tamil as my second lang........it was my first day of school in tt sch. n da first lesson was tamil......i looked at da board n wrote down in my bk stroke by stroke, letter by letter, word by word, line by line.......den da teacher was wonderin wat da heck was wrong w me n how i cum i didnt noe how to read nor write my own mother tongue.......den i told her it was my very first lesson of tamil lang.....den she told my grand ma to send me for tamil tuition.......my grand ma retaliated n she took all da efforts to teach me.....durin my hols.... she made me sit down 5 hrs per day for three days to learn tamil w her (as she had been a teacher for 40 yrs n had juz retired).....

my grand ma is my first guru for tamil......she made me read n write tamil in three days.....i did not had to go for any tuition...

gonna read harry potter 5th bk again......so interestin! i really wonder how rowlin can rite so well......haiz......

gtg leh
byeez

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Tuesday, May 18, 2004

hie ppl....

yesterday, i vent all my anger on my dance n i hv nvr banged my leg so hard b4....my legs were totally red aftr dancin.....had a nice tym dere showin all my anger......n i did evry thing w da killer-instinct kinda look on my face.....my dance teacher was wondering wat da heck was wrong w me......

last nite my sissy slept w me.....we both slept on a single-cot...squeezy but cosy.....my sissy cuddled against me....she sleep so cute!

at hme...rotting....got stomach ache liaoz.....lying down n rottin.....being reminded of camp second day when i was like dis da whole day......sweet memories.....

i learnt smth frm my sissy, she said tt she wld sit b hind me n i shld sit b hind her.....i was wonderin how dis can b possible n den i asked her......she said sit back-to-back lor! so simple! i was stunned by her presence-of-mind lor......todae she has been sooo nice to me lor.....

tym aftr exams is quite boring though....no stress...nth much to do......roamin abt da hse doin nth....called fazr n no one picked up da phone....n my parents gave me permission to do wateva i want for another 4 days......dunno how to pass da tym.....

juz sneaked in to blog.......juz had lunch.....so bored.....

tmr got games.....post exam activities

gtg liaoz...
byeez

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, May 17, 2004

i ended up juz droppin on to da canal ground! i tried my very best to endure but......unsuccessful! wad else can i do? i wanted to continue but my physical fitness wldnt co-operate!

feel so guilty for not marchin cuz i reported sick.....budden gotta play captain's ball n was havin a fun tym w my pltn mates.....

all da incidents were mere co-incidence lor.....hu left aftr i left? i where got do tt? i was doin my own work n den left aftr finishin dem......n my exp has been like dis for 13 yrs.....how to change it suddenly? nvm, i shall try.........

i dun show my anger or any othr feelings,in anything, i wld like to make dis clear to sum ppl......

last nite my dad was askin me to go for tuition todae frm 8-2, as he was sooooooooo irritated cing me polishin......n i had to implore him to let me go todae lor......

i deserved dis.........n i deserve more dan dis..........soooooooo angry w myself for doin sumthin lor!

nvm.......gtg
byees


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Sunday, May 16, 2004

hie........

dis is a very long entry........

yesterdae.........

went to buy her prezzie at night at 8.30 pm......was selecting it for abt 1 hr....den finally made up my mind n chose da best i cld find dere......very limited choices dere......den waited for da shop aunty to finish wrappin evrything.......i had to begg my dad to allow me to buy my personal prezzie! he finally agreed but, half-heartedly....
as u noe......i m very bad at persuadin, n convincin n comfortin ppl..........den aftr comin home.........i had to protect dem frm my sissy......she arh....dunno da value of fragile things arh......goodness! nvm......she is only 4 n a half yrs old......but she shld noe da basic thngs rite? nvm.....since i luv her soo much.....i shall forgive her minor mistake......

since morning, evrything has been goin wrong except for one thing.....i shall cum to tt thing later......now i shall begin my entry by listing down evry thing from morning until now.........but b4 i start.............i wld like to sae smth.....HAPPIE B'DAE TO HER! i think todae is oso YellOw Hat's b'dae......if it is.....HAPPIE B'DAE TO HER TOO!

morning evrything was late.......infact, frm last nite itself......last nite...i finished art prep work at 9 pm.....budden i was somehow dalayed in goin to bed......i ended up goin to bed at 11.30 n slept at 12.30 am......

den dis morning i woke up at 5.15 when i usually wake up at 5.........den went down but da van hadnt cum.....so waited waited waited n da van ended up comin late......it came at 6.20 am when it is supposed to cum at 6.10 am.......den reached sch late n was ten min late for traffic duty.......da ppl doin duty b4 me forgotta gimme da gloves i think.......den wanted to borrow frm li ting......she ended up giving me one glove only.......if she had given me da right hand at least it wld hv been betta.....but she gave me da left one.......den i wore da left glove on my right hand n was standing dere like an idiot w one glove......

n den went for assembly den went to class........finished all final touch-up for art prep. work, ms lee was in our class tokin to me n farz when we were doin our work.....she was uskin us to give her feed back abt her teachin as she is a trainee teacher i suppose.......den came down for recess.......n den went to buy food, n had no place to sit.....so had no choice but to sit where i was sittin todae......n den remembered i had to buy a new brush as mine wasnt in gd condition and i oso had to buy a black marker........so rushed to bookshop n bought....u noe i spent all my lunch money on it.....?! it cost me $2.10 which can b used to hv my lunch.......

den end up goin late for exam........den mrs gam came late.....exam started late......i finished it juz on time........in fact i cldnt manage to outline da whole thing......i juz outlined da main pics......it made my final piece look quite funny!

n den mrs gam lah......delayed me n kelly to go for our celebration! our class was da only class in da whole blk, infact da whole two classrm blocks, echo n futura......den we had four of our pltn mates visiting us n askin mrs gam to bring us doqn stairs n she denied k!

n den went down late.......but dis is da one tt has been alright......HER B'DAE CELEBRATION!

HB gave da present which we bought as a whole n i gave her my personal prezzie n a b'dae card.....i hope she likes it......i think dey opened it as a whole........n den dey were 'woooooo'ing here n dere.......i want even sooo hapyy on my b'dae....of course i was sick lah......but i dun remember feelin so satisfied w anything in my life b4.....i hv made a person happy on her b'dae.....da only times when i was so happy was when my sissy was born, when i got gd PSLE results, n when i was posted to crescent.......

sooooooooo sad........didnt mean to hurt LEavEs' feelings.....i mean i seriously cldnt do anything u c.....i asked dem if dey wanna buy n dey didnt wanna......although i wanted to......i felt awkward to give her personally! i hope she understands......n i hope she dsnt dao me......i think natUrE wld react in a very different way frm mondae onwards........dunno abt FloweRs n YellOw Hat........

went hme w aish.......i juz realised tt me n aish hv gotten closer dan we were in our pri sch........i think it is b cuz of nc.....it is true tt ur true frenz cum frm nc, ur pltn mates.......it is very right lor.......

now at home......juz finished practising my Indian Classical Vocal(Carnatic Music, Vocal) n juz recalled how to play Veenai(an indian traditional instrument).....i cant b lieve i forgot how to play tt! nvm.........i shall learn tt again frm my mum when i go back to india for vacation or smth.....

my grandma asked me how cum todae i look very happy and satisfied..........i told her abt natUrE.............den my cldnt even imagine i hv so much affection n respect for her......

yeah! so happie tmr got nc.....i m gonna enjoy myself tmr.........provided my parents allow me to go tmr.....den later got dance class..........which i will oso enjoy n my parents wld surely allow me to go........

juz realised rod is gettin closer n closer! i wun b sad on rod but will be crying miserably.......i think juz like last yr, i m gonna b da first person to start cryin n da last person to stop crying.......

later gtg n prepare boots, call sum pltn mates to ask dem to bring money, n pack other stuff for tmr.....at least muz sleep early todae.........n b healthy for tmr's pt......i musnt report sick! i shall try my best!

gtg liaoz......
byeeeeees

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, May 15, 2004

yippppeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! main exams ovr oredi! i m a free bird frm todae until nxt week....i m given da freedom as my dad said tt i hv been workin very hard since da beginnin of dis yr until now for my mid yr exams........tmr is only art....muz go n do prep work later.......aftr tt, i m gonna buy present for her......

todae maths wasnt as tough as i expected it to be......i mey get arnd 70..........i tot i wld get a paper in which i can only get 50+.....luckily da paper wasnt soooo bad.....

aftr exam....went to canteen to hv lunch..........n sum ppl were walkin rite b hind me until mrt station while goin home........dey appeared frm out of no where lor.....den saw Bad in da mrt station n was tokin w her when i was unfortunate as i saw dat person......i did not wanna c her as she has hurt my feelings a lot......esp on fri tues aftr my sci paper......tt's y i didnt wish to c her budden had no choice todae......n i wanted to leave b4 she left........budden end up walkin in front of her n takin da same train as her........if she had not hurt my feelings i wldnt b so bad to her......i was avoidin her as much as possible.......if she is nice to me, den i m nice to her....i m not a dol for dem to play with.....i oso have smth called a heart......n smth called delicate feelings......

my sister's nonsense + nuisance again......i had juz re-arranged my book shelf last wk....todae arh....aiyoh! all messed up.....many of my things including my ear plug n goggles for swimmin all missin u noe! she is really gonna get a whack from me todae.....she is not back frm her child care.......i shall do smth abt it immediately aftr she cums......she shld noe wat she is not supposed to do.....i think she is tt old enough......she is 4 n a half yrs old.......she can play w her own things.......but not mine! i shall make this clear to her todae! she wld nvr ever forget dis whack.......

gtg liao
byee

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, May 14, 2004

wat da.......wateva u call it.......geog arh....wateva ms fam said will cum out didnt cum out.....wateva she said wun come out came out......wat is dis lor.......budden got hope tt i hv improved frm my previous tests......

went to collect higher tamil results.......wah lao.....u noe dey scared me like xiao! for my listening compre dey go n put 16/40! i was like.....WAT! but da mistake was so obvious lor......dere were only ten qns.....i got one of dem wrong.......so even if it is upon 40 i shld get 36......so m,y total marks for SA1 were 15 % lesser dan my CA marks.....den da teacher said..."u did very poorly for ur composition......tts y u hv such a great difference in ur marks......usually da difference is within ten marks u noe.....u better buck up k?" den i was lyk.....how cum i deprove so much lor.....?! dunno how cum dey didnt notice da mistake when dey had two teachers markin da paper n two teachers checkin dem......den i pointed out da mistake n i got an increase of 20 marks lor.....!

juz imagine! if i hadnt went to check da papers todae, i wld hv gotten 20 marks lesser.....my mthr was supposed to cum w me todae.....but as a result of communication gaps between us......i went first....den my mthr had gone dere.....she checked da papers....came home rushin to congratulate me...........i didnt noe abt my class position until she told me lor! she gave me a pleasant surprise......budden i m still not happy w my results lor.....

juz came back frm english tuition......saw staff sze hui while comin back......i didnt recognise her at first.....den aftr i walked past her i recognised....den i greeted her n den went to look for da b'dae present......actually dey werent wat i expected......i want smth more dan dose......nvm.....i shall go n search for better ones tmr......aftr finishin my art prep work......now i m supposed to b lookin thru maths......budden so stressed up until i found out tt i need sum relaxation for my saturated brain.......tt's y i m bloggin now......

u noe yesterday i came home at 3, bathe.....den read story bk for relaxation.....den i was revising geog for da 6th tym, frm 4 pm all da way to 12 midnight.....! i forgot to even hv my dinner.....i even forgot to go to da rest rm or drink water u noe! i only had one break tt was to cum n sit in front of da comp for exactly 1 min....i timed myself w my stop watch.....

den i went to bed at 12.30, set da alarm clock to ring at 3 am n den slept at 1, 1.30 arnd dat tym.....den i woke up at 3 and studied geog until 5 am .....den frm 5 i started gettin ready for school......so i had survived dis whole day w 2 hrs at most, w out sleepin during da daytym todae....n i m still awake.....

my sister another nuisance u noe....i m so nice to her...i dun scold her, unlike sum other sisters hu i noe.....i give in soo much to her she climb ovr my head......i treasure da presents given by my friends for my b'dae.......deir value is more dan my life......n i kept dem in a place where my sister cant c or reach....she sum how saw dem n demanded for dem............my parents oso took many of dem n gave it to her lor! all da items are breakable u noe! n she broke one of dose! i got so angry until i was abt to give her a tight smack on da head.....my face was totally red......my hair on my hands stood up......but i controlled myself very hardly......wah lao! how can i trust her n leave my things?! my sch bks...i cum hme n open dem....dey r all scribbled n sum of dem torn......how to survive like this! idiotic idiots! i totally hate dis can! so frustrated!

FINE! i shall zip up n go n put my head in to maths text book! i sumhow have to survive dis kinda env....if any1 else were in my place.....i tell u dey sure wld hv lost temper very badly......how wld u feel if u take so much pains to take down pages n pages of notes...........u discover all of dem r torn n scribbled when u cum back home?! muz my sister ask for my things onli?! wat is so nice abt it! hello lor! shld scold her n bring her up properly......if not for my parents....at least i shld do tt...........her future shldnt b spoilt......

gtg
bye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, May 13, 2004

I HATE SCIENCE!
I HATE DEM!

sci paper was so tough can....! me another one! i forgot muz onli do 4 qns in section C.....i did all five qns....no wonder i didnt hv much tym left to check da paper......

u noe yesterdae i was studyin sci frm 3 pm to 9 pm......? den my parents were scoldin me for strainin myself soooooooo much.........i took down notes for all da chp.....read da whole tx bk again.........took so much efforts......i hv been takin da same amt of efforts since da beginning of da year lor..........end up arh.....all my efforts in to da RUBBISH BIN! i shldnt sae i hate science.....science actually rocks.......i shld sae dis: I HATE SCIENCE MID-YEAR EXAMINATION 2004 PAPER!

den dey make me agitated......i seriously didnt noe dat dey were dere....i was so pissed off w myself for my performance in da sci paper until i was hvin a straight face, lookin down n walkin............i usually go to da end of da mrt station......not my fault rite?! den i walk walk walk.......i heard a familiar voice.... so i looked up....i saw dem! c me onli arh.....muz grumble here grumble dere.....sigh here sigh dere one u noe! i did not go dere purposely can?! i hv nth better to do is it? didnt u c da look of horror on my face?! i quickly turned back n walked away to da place in front......only dey noe how to insult me isit?! only dey noe how to hurt my feelings is it?! i oso noe how to do tt......i m not fallen at deir feet.....dun like to c me, dun like to tok to me, dun like to acknowledge me can open deir golden mouths n say directly to me or not! n not b have to me very nicely outside n curse me n scold me inside deir hearts! i like straight forward ppl......i dun like dese kinda ppl......in tt case i appreciate da ppl in my tagboard hu openly said tt i suck n dey hate me n stuff......budden sae oso musnt sae for countless times.....tell me once can oredi.......(dis paragraph is not referring to any sweet crescentians)

i m so pissed off w myself! i hate dem! i hate todae's sci paper!

still got stoopid geog to study............yesterdae i was in such a happie mood................todae is juz da opposite lor.....anywaes......i onli expect 65 to 75 for todae's sci paper.....

gtg
bye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, May 12, 2004

alo ppl.......

lit n homec wasnt as bad as i expected dem to b......hope to at least get one grade higher dan my usual.....same for homec....da min i expect for homec is 67/100..........nvm....aniwaes i'm not gonna take tt subject nxt yr.........so less worries abt homec....

now comin to lit....lit wasnt as bad though.....i think i did better dan my usual.....i was quite prepared for a few questions b4 hand...in case dey came out in da exam....i gave myself questions n answered dem w out anyone's help......n nearly da same kinda questions came out todae.....

muz go n read sci....i hv taken down notes and i hv oso summarised evry chp by writing down impt pts......summarisin i hv dun onli for 4 chp....still hv 5 chp....muz go n do now....

geog still hv quite a lot to revise again.......very scared for geog now......nvm.....i shld b positive......

mornin did traffic duty.....actually forgot tt todae i had traffic duty......den when i was abt to get down da sch van.......i rem OMG! got traffic duty todae.....hahahaz.....had a nice endin of duty by cing dat person a few mins b4 my duty finished.......

da stoopid van arh.......cant dey spray sumthin to keep away all da cockroaches?! YUCKS! so disgusting...........dis morning one crawled ovr my hand lor! yyyeeeeeeeeeWwwwwwwwwww! i HATE cockroaches! dis prob has been for abt 2 wks lor.......i m comin in da van hpin tt no cockroach wld climb on me lor.....since i m sittin in da front.....i m da onli one hu gets trouble by dose creatures lor..... i usually sleep in da van as it is a one-hour journey...........now cant even sleep lor! summore last nite i slept at 2 aftr finishing revisin homecons.....den dis morning woke up at 5 am.......goodness.....i had to write todae's exam w 3 hrs of sleep! if i had slept in da van.....i wld hv gained another hour of sleep lor! nvm......anywaes i dun really care abt my health n sleep......i juz take care for da sake of doin it n i juz sleep for da sake of sleepin.........although i feel uncomfortable w out much sleep, i dun really care......budden when it cums to exams and lessons......i usually benefit frm da running evry morning as it wakes me up frm my sleep.....hahaaz........nvm.......

gtg now liaoz......
byeeees......

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, May 10, 2004

now back home.........so happy da mouse is workin..........so convenient w da mouse lor...........i was frustrated w out it.......nvm

life is........i wld not sae routine as it is referred to casual n relaxed lifestyles.....but dis is a robotic life.......so stressful.........life is full of outer n inner conflicts..........conflicts between brain n emotions........

scared for both lit n homecons...............tt mrs khan go n scare me by saying in overall............homecons wld make a big difference blah blah blah..........i was fallin asleep.........

aftr sch was studyin science n lit.......took down notes.........soooooo stressed.......until got a very bad headache.........totally cldnt concentrate......so noisy..........forced myself to mentally shut my ears n block da noise.......now i juz came home n finished bathing........now i m like a person w some sort of mental blockage liddat...............if dis continues, surely will fail lit lor.........

todae took photos of my class redcross ppl in deir uniforms..........wei xue n ying yi.............dis elizabeth ah.............i m sooooooooo disappointed lor.........hu sae i got book her? i promise i didnt lor........but she still cant b persuaded lor..........nvm.......she nice to farz but not to me........nvm.......if ppl r nice to me i m nice to dem......if dey r mean to me.......i either b mean to dem or juz ignore dem.........anywae in another 6 mths we will b goin to different classes........so it is ok..........but to say da fact.........me n farz always tok abt elizabeth durin chinese lessons.......n we support her n r against a person hu caused troble for her..........i hope ppl will understand me as time goes by........nvm

todae farz was crappin abt SAM.......she was saying tt SAM is so useful u noe....without SAM evryone's life will b quite difficult u noe......SAM this SAM that.......i was fed up lor.......onli den i understood tt da sam she referred to was da Self-Service Automated Machine in da redhill MRT station n we were standing right in front of it.......i tot she was referring to a person hus name is samantha or smth liddat......hahahaz.......so lame of us......

anywaes............i m supposed to be puttin my head in to a chunk of words.......sheets of paper........... books........but i simply cant get myself studying lor..........my mind is filled w so many memorised stuff tt it is like saturated n cant put in anymore.........
Probs:
geog got nearly 45 lessons........homec abt 10 chp............sci abt 9 chp........n lit got two plays to understand well.......den got maths concepts to get used to...........den muz finish art preparatory work........OMG!

my futile efforts to solve dese probs:
hv read homec sci n geog txt books (all chp tt cum for mid yr) abt 4 to 5 tyms......hv taken down sheets n sheets of notes.........geog oso got do sum work bk qns n sum txt bk qns frm almost evry chp......got do a bit of art prep work........hv dun nearly all chp's skill prac in da txt bk.......hv dun sme ten yr series qns.......hv dun da past yr papers again in a separate note book.......lit i hv written 9 essays askin myself my own qns......hv taken down 6 pages of notes for each play.........wat else can i do lor...........i cant do anything else but to do evrything again n again..........Goodness........

joy to da world! i m gonna fail in my attempts in gettin in to triple science n fulfil my parents' dreams..........sooooooooooo hopeless.........da only way i usually relieve myself is by bloggin............now dis is oso not workin........nvm

gtg liaoz......
byeeeeezzzzzz................

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, May 08, 2004

hie ppl.......

found out when her b dae is......it is TODAE! Happy birthday to tt person!.....

exam approachin......gettin more n more loaded w my own works n studies by myself..../

dat person dun wanna tell me da b' dae lor........dat person say tt he/she oso nvr give me b'dae present....den y shld he/she tell me her/his b dae.........i juz wanna noe leh.......

HER b'dae comin liaoz......planning smth nice for her.......but juz wonderin wat to buy........i heard she has no favourites n tt she is neutral to evryting......dunno to wat extent it is true..........i m squeezin my mind thinkin of wat to buy for her lor..........dat person sae tt da present is expected to b smth special as it is chosen by me n said tt she wld like wateva i give her...........dunno if to believe tt person or not...........haiz........

my uncle frm india is here......he came yesterday only........only his family members were here.......who r mi cousins n aunt..........i got abt 15 books........my uncle brought dem frm india........one of dem is a story bk by sherlock holmes lor...my god! i was so delighted to c it.......i actually wanted to borrow one of his books n i got one for myself.......i oso wanted to buy a thesaurus as miss chan asked me to buy one during da consultation yesterday.......i went home n i saw i had , among my 15 bks, a thesaurus.....i was very happy lor........

now in comp lab....cs juz finished......da bell has rung........

b4 i go.....

GOOD LUCK TO EVERY ONE FOR YOUR EXAMS!

byes


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, May 08, 2004

hie....

fridae was chattin w her n let out evryting.......she was so kind to listen to all i said soooo patiently.................haiz........here is a tamil poem tt i wrote..........

yaarodu yaaro
yaar aRivaaro
ithaiyam, ninaithaal,
nadanthidumaa?

vaa vaa uyirin uyire
povoam vithiyin vazhiyae
ninaippathu thaana
kidaippathu ellorkum?

manase manase
thudikkuthu manase
manam vittu paesa
thudikkuthu manase

vaazhkai vaazhkai sogamadaa
vaazhvathu avar avar kaiyiladaa
vaazha therinthathu manithanadaa
vaazha vaippathu theivamadaa

moongil kaatril thee pidithaal
pullangulazhalgaL ilaaiyada
vaazhkaiyil sogam vanthathendral
manithan maname udainthathadaa.......

thunbamainRI inbamaaga
vaazhkai vaazha vaeNdumae
ninaippathu thaana
kidappathu ellorkum..........

i think dis poem is a bit da crappy......but.....dunno lah........juz felt lyk writin.......tt's y.......

gtg
byes

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Sunday, May 02, 2004