hey guys..

all dese days i cldnt blog..blogger had sum prob i guess..yep...had a nice tripl to malaysia..i went to penang, langkawi, melaka n kl...luckily da tsunami occurred da day aftr we left frm dere..we went to da coastal areas mann..i saw da ocean n was commenting tt it was so calm..n da nxt day it had proved me wrong..haiz..usually, da pacific ocean dsnt hv waves..if it was my fate to die dere, our trip wld hv bin extended fer anthr day...luckily we din get da train ticket fer da next day..if we had gotten, i wld hv bin swallowed by da tsunami...anw, let's hv a minute of silence fer da poor souls hu longed to live but cldnt..

SILENCE....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

k..dad's plannin to donate to da relief fund..

k..me transferring sch cuz kent ridge is offering me triple sci...n luckily da sch has no lit..haha..relieved! n nw i m in choir..k..n i guess my morale wld be boosted up..

wad's ur bloody prob if i transfer sch ah? it is my wish to do wad i wan..dun gimme tt kinda reaction..anw, u r nvr gonna obstruct my way anymore..i m glad u gt lost frm my sight...i wun b seeing u anymore...bloody hell...

kk..muz cool dwn..
k bye

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, December 30, 2004

hie ppl!

firstly, i m gettin baq my collar pin as a memory! i was longing fer it n i m gonna get it..what my mum says is true..my will power is gd..whateva i long fer, i wld get it..mebbe i wasnt willing myself tt much to get into triple or stay in nc, possibly b cause i tot dere wld b an alternative, tho i wanted it as much as i wanted my collar pin...dunno what went wrong..k..no point crying over spilt milk..i will make sure da milk dsnt spill again...

secondly, me going malaysia fer anthr 5 days..so wun b blogging(duh)..haha..anw, i guess i m goin langkawi...den mebbe kl..might b visiting my old apartment block dere...in petaling jaya...n wld b recollecting sweet memories i had dere..might b visiting a few relatives dere too..yea..so..c ya soon ppl..me soo excited..gonna visit a place tt i erallie peacefully enjoyed in my childhood..it was a wonderful life dere, juz like da one in my home land..haha.yep..soo..happy hols anw ppl! or rather enjoy what is left of it..haha..okie..merry christmas n a happ new yr too!

wld be leaving at 8 pm todae i guess..goin by train..haha..k..byee

byee

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, December 17, 2004

hie ppl..

had a fun tym during da week end..went to orchard to c da lightings..wsas marvellous mann..saw my childhood elderly frenz hu took care of me until 3 yrs old..haha..yea..n nth much la..n i dunno hw to delete dose stoopid messages saying "error" in my tagboard..cuz farz inserted da tag board fer me..n i dunno wad account she used..n summore she nt in town..she has gone to malaysia i guess..yea..so i can only delete dem aftr she cums baq..anw, me hving sore eyes, cough flu n sore throat..n i m trying to finish da stoopid hw..kk i gtg
bubbye..


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Hie ppl

first of all, sry fer nt bloggin all dese days as in my comp, blogger gt prob..dis entry was typed by me in ms word..so ya..

Recap:

Wednesday

Had part outing..at pasir ris park..hired bicycle fer 2 hrs n happily rode dem frm one end to da othr..fengy v cute la..she was touching practically everything on da shore..dead crabs n dead fish..haha..da water was heavily polluted..poor dead organisms..den dey played captain’s ball..i played one game as da captain..den dey played card games n I watched dem too..oggy v cute la..as blur as me..hehe..gd company..den ate our fills..ha a nice tym..thz a lot dear pltnmates fer organising such a nice outing n fer calling me to join in! hv a fun tym ahead…hehe..

Thursday

Went to sch to return nc uniforms..saw staff sam n went to her…sgt zur came to help too..dey collected my no.3 n no.4 uniform…den I asked if I shd return my collar pin..n dey said yes..i took off my soul, my life, my dedication, frm my collar n handed it over to dem..I CRIED! Tears juz rolled dwn…I felt like my soul was being sucked out of my body..when m I gonna wear da prestigious uniform again? Hw many girls r lucky enuff to wear tt uniform? Da pride I had in wearin my collar pin, was all gone frm me..all I hv nw is da small hole created in my sch uniform by my collar pin., n sweet n unforgettable memories frm nc…when m I gonna march again? When m I gonna sing “bang bang left foot..”, “purple light”, “arnd da bush”,”we r da members of da NCC”, “dwn by da river”? n many othr cheers? When m I gonna b part of water parade, saying da core values, nc pledge n nc song? When m I gonna do 5BX? When m I gonna shoot?when m I gonna b recognised as a CREZ NC cadet? When m I gonna be a guard of honour? When m I gonna b part of da team tt is gonna organise da quest? When m I gonna wear no.4 uniform n do cca recruitment? I felt it..da pain in my heart..i m half dead…being half dead is worse dan being dead u noe…

Den staff n sgt gave me a black piece of paper, w deir message in it..i consider it as a recognition fer my dedication n commitment as an nc cadet..thankyou staff n sgt! n I thank all othr snrs n specs once again! Da only thing I m satisfied w is tt I was a strongly committed and dedicated cadet of crez nc…although not so physically committed, mentally I was ready to do anth..all dese days, I was in nc, goin against my parents…n earning a bad name frm ppl tt I dun obey my parents..but I din care..nw I really cldnt manage w my leg, n da doc strongly advised me to quit nc…nw I m no more in nc…I hv given evry single thing tt sybolised tt I m frm nc..i dun like to wear my sch uniform oredi…looks so plain…my love, life, soul, heart, breath…everything has been taken away frm me…my honour as an nc cadet..my dignity as a person frm da best cca of da best sch..

Smth tt staff n sgt had written: character is like a tree n reputation like its shadow. Shadow is what we think of, but the tree is da real thing.

Such a nice philosophy n definition of character n reputation..den I went to da toilet n cried my hearts out…den wanted to c mrs khan to join chess club..heard tt she wasn’t dere…den I walk here walk dere, so pre-occupied…den I got lost in my own sch..i finally found my way out of da sch..i din hv da heart to go out at all…dere was a magnetic effect frm da nc rm tt was pulling me towards it…my uniform…I kept goin in tt direction..haiz..i m outta nc as a LANCECORPORAL…I hv lost all da respect..frm my jnrs…all da luv as a pltnmate..nw I m a third person to bravo 04..i m not part of it anymore…all da care n concern my snrs had fer me…I came hme n cried summore…my grand ma cried too, seeing me cry so much…she was also a teacher fer 40 yrs n was incharge of all da uniformed grps in her sch together w my late grand dad…so she was v proud of me when I told her I was in nc..nw all da pride has gone..my closely related aunt was in nc n passed out w da highest rank in india..n me? Outta nc juz lidat…

Haiz..

Signing off w a broken heart,
LCP Nivetha.


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, December 13, 2004

alo ppl..

cldnt blog fer a few days cuz blogger got prob le.. anw, nth much dese few days la..juz starting to miss my classmates n a few other people..haiz..juz doin hw hw n more hw..hv 1 more news paper article, 1/2 a session's a.maths brid. course hw, d.maths hw, read a story, n phrase book entry..i m gettin bored at hme..haiz..sick of being pissed off by ppl, sick of being nagged at by ppl, sick of being scolded fer mistakes tt r not committed by me..sick of hvin headache every day..all in all, i m not enjoying my hols partly cuz of da bloody hw n by PPL's pissing off acts..

anw, my granny goin to india on 24 dec..she has bin here fer 11 mths...i m gonna miss her mann! she is da only person hu is supportive..ppl out dere hu hv deir granny w dem at hme or at accessible dist! attention pls! pls treasure ur grand parents n bear da v minor trouble if dey give u any..dey r da true trasure..my granny's gonna go baq to india..i will survive here w my sister..as sum of u might noe, managin my sis is a very hard thing to do..yeap..haiz..

k, i shall go nw..c ya soon..bubbye!


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, December 03, 2004