hey guys!
spent my b'dae doing 17 continuous hrs of hol hw on sat...i started on 19 03 2005 3 pm n finished my werk non-stop...at 9 am 20 03 2005...which is da next day...no sleep no toilet break...no meals...no nothin...juz home werk..i dunno y i had dis sudden determination...and as u guys noe, if i wanna do smth, i wun stop until i finish it...

dorothy, roshni n priya bought me a prezzie! thz dears! n so many ppl wished me happy b'dae...din noe i was loved by so many ppl! anw, today i m done w all my hw n i hv da whole 3 days to study n notta do hw! yay! ok den...my common test 2 was pretty ok...maitaining same grades as ct 1...so no diff la..

ok den... nth much to say la..gtg k..byee..

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, March 24, 2005

hey guys!

went to watch da master parade todae..well..wad hv i gotta say? i dunno..i m dumb founded w all my memories in ncc..i wonder y on earth did ncc ever intrude in my life or why did i ever cum across crescent? n y were all my 3 sets of ncos, part a, b n c ncos...y were dey sooo nice n y did dey instill da sense of belonging to crez nc in us? n y was i one of dose hu was very committed to ncc? becuz of all dese reasons...it is very hard fer me to forget abt my memories n it is harder dan when i was in crez, to concentrate in my studies..i m constantly reminded of my memories in crez n in nc..i feel like crying wheneva i think of dese...todae when i saw my dear pltnmates, i was on da verge of crying..n when i saw my nco receiving da ranks frm maam cheng, i really did cry..i dunno y i became sooo emotional...when i was abt to leave...i asked staff sam if i cld juz tell a few things to my pltnamtes...n she stopped dem frm marching...n den i was half crying..but sum hw trying to stop my tears frm rolling dwn..n i juz said "well...gd luck to u all..tc..n ya..c ya all.."..den dey said "gd bye nivetha".. n i rushed outta crez b4 i started crying n embarrass myself...my ncos gave me n yee lyn da contingent shirt n staff returned my collar ping as a memory too..i guess our dear pltnmates chipped in money n paid fer us..thankyou all! thz fer being dere! when i saw u all, all da sweet memories juz flashed across in my mind...i wld nvr forget u all my dearz! bravo 04 rawks mann!

i saw floren, yu ting n su min in frnt of G.O. n dey asked me abt my new sch..den da more i was reminded of 2S3 04' n i hurried outta crez..

den i went fer my grp meeting at daniels hse..mann, no wonder daniel so lean n thin...his hse is like on a hill summit lidat...we climbed so many stairs lor..wonder hw he climbs so many stairs evry day...discussion was fine...we were da only two gals in our grp..my self n shu xin..da rest of da members were wei xin, our grp leader (also class chair person), jian looong (who looks more like mr lee kuan yew, n he is da maitenance head of 3E6), daniel (IT rep), wei min (class treasurer), shu xin is da cme rep n i m in class discipline committee(discipline again, in crez student council, i was in discipline com too!) n me n shu xin r da designers fer our product as we r da only ones in our grp who passed our art last yr..haha..yep..den came hme n nw blogging..

last yr march 19, i was in part b camp...my pltnmates sung b'dae song fer me..altho i was sick :(..i m sooo reminded of tt..da previous yr, tt is in yr 2003, i was supposed to go fer part a camp budden i had spoiled my ankle (frm tt day onwards my injury has bin permanent) n i was limping at hme, i slipped inside da toilet n fell n my injury got worse...dat was my 12th b'dae..dis yr, my 14th b'dae...time is so fast..i rem juz telling snr ari ovr da phone tt i cld not go fer part a camp..n so fast i m outta crez n in sec 3...n outta nc..far far away frm my dear pltnmates n snrs n specs...haiz...like my blog heading says..."men may come n men may go..but time n tide waits fer no man"

tc guys!
byee(gonna indulge my head into da ten yr series to do hw)

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, March 18, 2005

hey guys! loong tym nvr blog..k..got nth much to say tho..i hv bin crammed w stuff evrydae until i hv not ym to even think of da werd "enjoy" or "relax"...evrydae cum hme like 7+...monday gt grp meetings n extra lessons..my official lessons end at 3 *no lunch break in between, only recess...:(* on mondays n tuesdays...den tuesday gt htl...i reach hme at 8.30 as usual..den wed gt house practise..it ends at 6.30..n it is compulsory..den thursday gt choir until 6.30...fri gt htl n tamil lit lessons...htl lesson frm 2.45 - 4.30 n tamil lit lesson frm 4.45 - 6.30...so again i reach hme only at 8.30...den sat gt tuition at boon lay...frm 11 to 2..n den sunday muz do n finish all hme werk..so practically evryday i sleep at 2 am or 3 am n wake up at 6 am...n summore gt so many tests..can u believe tt i had 1 set of class tests n 2 common tests in 1 term? i was so crammed lor..

den hols at least i tot can relax budden gt loads of hmwk..gt physics 4 chp in tys..den a msths n e maths, hv tys 3 chp each..summore hv dese two maths booklets full of sums..muz finish dem oso...den gt bio tys 5 chp..den gt htl n tamil lit hw..muz write 100 werds in tamil vocab bk...den gt english hw..gt geog elect hw too..muz do work book 2 chp..den gt bio test on enzymes n nutrition...n da test is on da monday right aftr da hols...so muz study fer tt oso..

i dun wan mar 19!!!! da unluckiest day...nth has bin goin rite ovr here...evrything is juz da opposite of wad i expect to happen...evry one is starting to scream at me, regardless of my own self-esteem being pushed dwn...i try my best to boost it up n ppl juz insult me in frnt of so many othrs fer no reason n i end up hving my self-esteem n self-respect being lowered...n i m oso getting pissed off very easily..i hv becum more violent..as in..when i m pissed off la..i hv started to throw thing n i broke things fer da first tym..i mean..hw much can a human being tolerate? unless dey wan me to keep evry thing bottled up to myself n burst one final day outta pressure n if dey wanna c a person die of pressure at da youngest age ever...

i m being pressurised by ppl to werk harder n score higher *which i think is totally ridiculous*..nah..hu cares..i will do my best n in da end i will not hv any regrets..

i wonder why
da earth existed
i wonder why
me, of all ppl
was born
i wonder why
i m considered
so useless
i wonder why
i m pressurised
n lastly
i wonder when
i'm cuming to an end...
-nivy-

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, March 14, 2005