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dis is a very very long entry i suppose

1/2 of dis entry is dedicated to a person hu chatted w my mom.....n thinks tt it was me hu used my mother's name to chat w her......only farz n dat person can understand.......... 1/2 of da rest of dis entry.....only da ppeople involved in dose incidents n farz can understand..........da remainin 1/2....i tink most ppl can understand........unless u r an abnormal person...............

on fridae.......went online.......n aftr sum tym.....dat person came online.....den i went to bathe........den when i came back frm my bath............i saw tt dat person asked me to tok to dat person's sibling.....den i said ok.........den started chattin w da siblin......dat siblin wanted to noe me but did not want to reveal da identity of him/her(i dun wish to reveal da gender)......den i was forced to b lieve dat da siblin was realli tt person's sibling n not dat person usin da sibling's identity.........did i b lieve? wat d u tink? hahahazz.....

den we were tokin nonsense............i was freaked out as sum ppl noe tt i m not used to dese kinda tings.......den dat person changed his/her nick to smth dat starts w a letter in my name.......den said da ting dat was common bet me n her/him.......den my mom came.........so i told dat siblin not to chat w me w dis kinda intentions n attitude n dat i was sry i had to sae dat.......den i told her/him tt i had to go.......i was so freaked out until i got fever lor......!

few mins later.....my mom went online.............my mom wanted to check if da headset n da mic was working.........since me n her use da same e-mail account....she saw dat person (not da sibling) online.........den i told tt person tt my mthr wished to chat w her/him........den dat person said he/she wldnt b lieve n was suspicious....she/he wanted to c if it was realli my mom or me using my mom's identity....pls lah....u tink i hv nth beta to do?.......den my mom chatted w dat person.......when my mom was chattin, i was juz lookin at wat dey were chatting.......den i accidentally/purposefully revealed to my mom hu dat person likes.......den my mom oso invited tt person to my hse.......i tink dat person was freaked out.......dun wanna b lieve my word ah......muz ask my fren one u noe..........

den my mom asked dat person if dat person cld tutor me.......den dat person said tt he/she was very fierce n so on............

aftr my mom chattin w tt person, i chatted w dat person...........n he/she said.......tt y my mom invited only her/him...........n y onli dat person shld tutor me n not anyone else.......den dat person said i cld ask sum othr ppl.....a better teacher.......n she/he oso said hu i can ask........

let me make dis clear......i was not da one hu chatted w her....it was my mom......really.....i tot at least dat person understands me well.....but now i m disappointed..........

comin to todae.......

got many tings......

early morn aftr taf run......went to fill up water bottle......den mrs goh walked past n me n farz greeted her....den she asked me to pick up a piece of paper in front of da toilet n throw it away.....so i picked it up......n turned to face farz......when i was scannin through it to c if it was anyting impt, i had a glimpse of 2 familiar ppl come out of da toilet........i was starin at one of dem to recall hu exactly she was.....den i realised it was sum ppl's fren......so turned in front to tok to farz abt da piece of paper i had just picked up......i did not realise hu was b side tt fren.........i saw farz trting to ask me to do smth but cldnt open her mouth........den i turned b hind again to realise tt da person b side da one i was starin at was sum-one-hu-is-impt lor! den i did wat i was supposed to do.........later went to class

b4 goin hme.....was supposed to return smth to sum one.........farz was sayin let us go n pay sum-one-hu-we-noe a visit...........n dere she came lor........i was soooo shocked to c her dere.........

den while goin home.......saw both of dem together at da canteen......den i did-smth-i-was-supposed-to-do............den went home.........

wat i m going to say applies to most of my blog entries tt involve dose ppl .....
a quote frm lit play, The Unexpected, tt i like..... "Where women are concerned, the unexpected always happens"...........dis is really very very true..........

my cousins n his family r here...........frm india..........dey r here for a holiday......dey wld b here for a month........my cousins r soooooooooo nice to me lor........my elder cousin got a state rank in his A levels in india.......which means tt in da whole of tamil nadu, he got da third highest marks........i m so proud of him lor.......i m so happy to say tt i m his cousin lor...... he got 1198/1200..............da marks r a total of 14 subjects......as a result.........da indian government agreed to support him financially........da indian government bore all his expenses concerning his studies lor.....dis is more dan a scholarship........now he is a doctor oredi.........

my second cousin got 1192/1200......he missed da medical seat by just 3 marks u noe.......da marks to get in to a medical course in india last yr was 1195/1200 lor.........i m soooo sad for him.........india has a lot of competition for medical stream..........now he is doin his engineerin 2nd year........

my cousins r soooooooooo nice to me aftr all........as u all noe......i dun hv elder siblings.......n i m sick of being da eldest in evryting........it is very nice to be a younger one to sum one...........so ppl w elder siblings shld really treasure dem despite all deir wrong n irritatin deeds......u wldnt appreciate smth when it is at ur reach..........u wld only appreciate when u dun hv it n when u long for it.......mebbe in my previous birth.........i had tortured my elder siblings..........tt's y to let me realise da value of dem......in dis birth, i dun hv older siblings hu r older dan me............i onli hv cousins........

i found out........i m mean n pissed up n serious most of da tym b cuz of two reasons.......no 1.......i need peace n silence............no 2..........i need sum one hu wld really listen to my probs n lend me a listenin ear........which my elder cousin did........sooo happy.....wonder how i wld react when dey leave for india........

i m blessed to b da youngest in my platoon.........

i wonder how dey feel abt it.........do dey think i m odd? d dey think i m tooo young to do anything tt dey can do?

ROD comin closer........EXAMS comin closer tooo.......muz manage stress


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Tuesday, April 27, 2004