hie......

in comp lab rite now..........

early morn first ting i heard aftr assembly in da council meetin was such a gd news lor.........it was tt me n farz r one of da 27 confirmed councillors..........aish is also confirmed...........i was havin da satisfied feelin......no one noes how hard i had been workin for it lor......my mom wanted me to b cum a prefect in my pri sch.......budden since i joined only at p5..........n da selection to b prefects was in p3......i cldnt b cum one........den my mom wanted me to b a councillor in crescent............n i hv fulfilled her dream.....her wish..........i can at least make her happy although she dsnt let me be so.........dis may seem very silly n a small matter to others....but it is very great to me..........lyk dis only i m soooo happy n feel satisfied......wonder how i wld feel when i fulfil my mom's dream n wish for me to get gd O level results...........get in to a gd jc......get gd A level results n get into a professional..........medical seat at NUS...........WOW! so nice to imagine......muz work hard for it.........tink she is aimin a bit too high for my brilliance n capabilities..............but i shall b optimistic n aim for tt n strive hard for tt unforgettable day of my life............

was havin a nice tym in canteen juz now.......doin hw n being entertained by sum ppl......one of da person hu i noe as her fren.came n asked me if i noe where dey were lor.........i hv nth beta to do issit? i was doin hw rite...nvm.den muz make so much noise when i was doin hw issit? wat is dis lor...........but still was enjoyin although cldnt finish htl hw.......

den went to class n saw HER in rotunda.......den ran away frm her........n den went to toilet w farz.......had a shock of mi life lor......saw HER again........den when we were comin back to da canteen.......mr ho asked us to help him carry da OHP to 1G2 n an OHP frm dere to da D&T workshop........ we helped him........farz nearly slipped in da rotunda........den he gave us a pleasant shock....he asked for our honour cards n chopped for us lor..........we actually didnt expect dis lor......... we tot it was not a great help n juz did as we were told.......we didnt do it expectin a reward.........

dis is a tamil sayin:

nanRi oruvarkku seithakkaal - annanRi
endRu tharungol enavaeNdaa - ninRu
thaLaraa vaLarthengu thaaLunda neerai
thailaiyaalae thaan tharuthalaal

dis means tt u do smth gd to a person......u dun expect tt person to help u in turn........ da example given for dis statement in tt sayin is tt a person waters da coconut tree.......w out expectin any help in turn....... aftr da tree has grown taller.....w da great help of da water........it provides u with tender coconut water n sweet coconuts.........it gets all ur help....stores it inside itself n returns u ur help by givin smth greater dan wat u did to it..........u juz gave it water.......but da coconut tree helps u in turn by givin u sweet water n sweet coconuts.........

n den now in comp lab...........need to go for tuition........muz leave sch at 5.30pm........I DO NOT MEAN TO WAIT FOR ANYONE..........

last nite.......i juz burst out in to tears when at bed at da thought of ROD n my most respected ppl all passin out lor.........last yr da same ppl, at da same tym, wished aish happy birthday on da first activity aftr dey took over.........den my sis came n disturbed me n i really cldnt stand it..........i was agitated lor.......finally i was in such a state tt i wouls explode n start screamin at da slightest irritation........

was crying n floated off to my saddest dream land........da scene of ROD........My NCOs in da position of my Part A NCOs during last yr ROD lor........nvm.......obviously evry one wld feel sad rite.......for all CCAs........

exams approachin.....english exam in 1 wk's tym.......so stressed......dad was scolding me tt i m like a bk worm always w a bk n i dun relax at all.......he forced me to watch tv n go n play games in da computer lor.........

tmr got imt......muz go hme aftr tuition n prepare evry ting for tmr.......

gtg liaoz.....
byees.......


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, April 22, 2004