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now back home.........so happy da mouse is workin..........so convenient w da mouse lor...........i was frustrated w out it.......nvm
life is........i wld not sae routine as it is referred to casual n relaxed lifestyles.....but dis is a robotic life.......so stressful.........life is full of outer n inner conflicts..........conflicts between brain n emotions........ scared for both lit n homecons...............tt mrs khan go n scare me by saying in overall............homecons wld make a big difference blah blah blah..........i was fallin asleep......... aftr sch was studyin science n lit.......took down notes.........soooooo stressed.......until got a very bad headache.........totally cldnt concentrate......so noisy..........forced myself to mentally shut my ears n block da noise.......now i juz came home n finished bathing........now i m like a person w some sort of mental blockage liddat...............if dis continues, surely will fail lit lor......... todae took photos of my class redcross ppl in deir uniforms..........wei xue n ying yi.............dis elizabeth ah.............i m sooooooooo disappointed lor.........hu sae i got book her? i promise i didnt lor........but she still cant b persuaded lor..........nvm.......she nice to farz but not to me........nvm.......if ppl r nice to me i m nice to dem......if dey r mean to me.......i either b mean to dem or juz ignore dem.........anywae in another 6 mths we will b goin to different classes........so it is ok..........but to say da fact.........me n farz always tok abt elizabeth durin chinese lessons.......n we support her n r against a person hu caused troble for her..........i hope ppl will understand me as time goes by........nvm todae farz was crappin abt SAM.......she was saying tt SAM is so useful u noe....without SAM evryone's life will b quite difficult u noe......SAM this SAM that.......i was fed up lor.......onli den i understood tt da sam she referred to was da Self-Service Automated Machine in da redhill MRT station n we were standing right in front of it.......i tot she was referring to a person hus name is samantha or smth liddat......hahahaz.......so lame of us...... anywaes............i m supposed to be puttin my head in to a chunk of words.......sheets of paper........... books........but i simply cant get myself studying lor..........my mind is filled w so many memorised stuff tt it is like saturated n cant put in anymore......... Probs: geog got nearly 45 lessons........homec abt 10 chp............sci abt 9 chp........n lit got two plays to understand well.......den got maths concepts to get used to...........den muz finish art preparatory work........OMG! my futile efforts to solve dese probs: hv read homec sci n geog txt books (all chp tt cum for mid yr) abt 4 to 5 tyms......hv taken down sheets n sheets of notes.........geog oso got do sum work bk qns n sum txt bk qns frm almost evry chp......got do a bit of art prep work........hv dun nearly all chp's skill prac in da txt bk.......hv dun sme ten yr series qns.......hv dun da past yr papers again in a separate note book.......lit i hv written 9 essays askin myself my own qns......hv taken down 6 pages of notes for each play.........wat else can i do lor...........i cant do anything else but to do evrything again n again..........Goodness........ joy to da world! i m gonna fail in my attempts in gettin in to triple science n fulfil my parents' dreams..........sooooooooooo hopeless.........da only way i usually relieve myself is by bloggin............now dis is oso not workin........nvm gtg liaoz...... byeeeeezzzzzz................ posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, May 08, 2004
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