so pissed off!

hvnt even woke up, sum ppl at 6.30 am, came to my bed, woke me up n started advising me lorh! wth lorh! n summore dey dare tell me i shldnt b so short-tempered blah blah blah...n i dun tok b4 brushing my teeth...so was trying v hard to scream back to da person...dey can show all deir temper on me larh...when i tell dem dis den dey wld say, cuz u r my daughter...so i hv all rights to do tt...but if i show my temper on dem arh....dey muz scold me back one u noe...i oredi was so damN irritated cuz of da comp...cant load power pt n cant load tamil fonts...dey say re-install ur comp den load evrything again...n my projects r due next wk...one of dem due tmr...my tuition's work...so i was so irritated n dere dey go shooting so ridiculous n silly qns at me...how dey expect me to react? i asked dem to down load for me dey say it is my prob...wat is dis lorh..so sickening!

during school days...i noe if i open my mouth to tok...dey will try to find sum faults or anthr n will end up quarrelling...so i juz dun tok at all...go to one of da two rms...sit down dere...study...do hwk...use da comp for a while n den eat den sleep...tt's it...now arh...my dad purposely moved da comp frm da rm to da hall...n he says i shld tok more w my family members...n yest...it so happened tt i was forced to tok in tt kinda irritated situation...den end-up...getting all sorta scoldings n all silly qns being shot at me...den when i tok back...dey scold me more...when i shut up dey say i dun react to anth n dey say tt i m disrespecting dem....i tok dey got prob...i dun tok dey got prob...wad dey expect me to do?!

but ppl hu read dis pls dun mistake me tt i dun respect dem at all...i do...if not i wun b staying here anymore...i wld hv bin dead long long ago...anw...dey r still my relation...so no choice...i shall juz shut up n act like a dumb person...as though i hv no feelingz...i m numb...i m in a coma state lidat...haiz...

bubbye...

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, June 23, 2004