alo..

at hme..resting..in one of my subdued moments..still feeling da same...i juz measured temp n it is 37.8...cough n sorethroat gettin worse..my sis watchin da video of my family, taken in 2001...mann i tell ya i'll cherish tt every moment mann...was hvin a peaceful life..altho had exam stress n i was in P5 since it was my first year of singapore studies...it was hardta catch up w da syllabus.. budden compared to da stress rite nw, tt one was much better n bearable..my family was close-knitted...ok..correction..it is still close-knitted..juz tt i dun spend much tym w dem i i feel so lost..

when i cum hme, i either study or do hw n projects...den i eat n den i go to sleep...n summore my dad has taken up a course n he is doin part-time..da rest of da day, he will b in his office..he cumz hme da earliest is 11 pm..my mum is doin full time PhD, research on west nile virus n she oso cumz hme at 10.30 only...by tt tym i will b very sleepy n i will b gettin ready to go to bed..

when i was in P5 i can afford to be awake until 12+ in da midnight oso...cuz my sch was aftrnoon session...nw i cant afford to b awake so late(altho sum of my werk drags my tym n keeps me awake until 12+, 1+)cuz hv to wake up at 5 am...haiz..n tt tym, i was so petted n pampered, so innocent n i was not exposed to the outside of my hse...so did not noe abt da unreasonable side of da werl...at tt tym , my werl was only my family...nw i m more exposed to da werl...n at dis tym, my parents r not free...

hw i wish i was in india....hvin da peaceful life...a routine life..everyday wake up at 7 am..den play skippin fer 30 mins..den rest fer 5 mins den go n bathe..cum outta da rest rm aftr 20 mins..den get dressed in my sch uniform, eat n den leave fer sch at 8.30 am...sch starts at 9 am..sch is a 2 minute walk frm hme..can c my sch frm my terrace...it shares our compound wall..juz tt we hv to go aroung the wall n dere is my school...

den aftrnoon cum hme fer lunch...lunch break is fer 45 mins...othr pupils will bring food frm hme to sch to hv lunch dere...den go baq to sch n return hme at 5 pm..den evy alt days got dance class n da remaning days got music class...so cum hme, hv a bath den change in to my dance uniform n go fer dance class which is 5 min walk frm my hse..class is fer 2 hrs...den cum hme at 8+ den bathe again...den start doin my hw frm 8.30 pm...n it will last me until 10 pm...den i watch tv until 10.30 n den sleep...it is da same when i hv music class...my grandma or one of our maids will bring me to da class n dey will either wait dere or cum hme n cum baq to pick me up...

n summore had v little stress dere as i will mostly b da 1st or 2nd in my class...n da rule in my sch is tt da person hu gets 1st in class will b da class leader(wat u call chairperson here)n dey will b given two badges, "First Rank" and "Class Leader"...n da person hu gets second will b da class' assistant leader(wad u all vice chair person here) n will b given a badge "Second Rank"...n da one hu usually competes w me will b a girl called Ranjini...she will foreva treat me as her 'enemy' n i will do so too...she was my only rival dere...

haiz...baq to reality..past is past...present is present...fate is fate..not say i dun like to live in s'pore...juz tt dere is too much stress here...if dere is da same amt of stress as much as in india..mann...dis will b my gr8est part of my life...haiz...enough of flash baq..


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Saturday, September 18, 2004