at hme..temp is abt 37.8 degree celsius..now...i juz dun understand y ppl cant accept me as i m n dey expect to b perfect..dey r not perfect n dey think wad, dey hv da guts to argue w me..i can juz feel my head ache n temp rising...pls get dis in to ur brains tt u r not perfect..u jolly well stop criticisin me..u r not fit to criticise me..u look at urslef first b4 commentin abt others...juz cuz dere r 15 of dem hu support u, n a few more, it dsnt mean tt u r perfect...n u urself agreed tt 15 of dem say i shd change...but u dunno hw many others r happy w me as i m..dey r called true frenz..

anw, as i hv said, my parents luv me nw, my sis is tailin behind me all da tym, my grandma and all my relatives r v compassionate towards me..n dey hv many dreams abt me...so i dun care wad u all say, i will b like dis n not change anymore..i cant change my wholeself juz fer da sake of 15 ppl...my character got prob den it is my own prob la..i noe i ask u all...u all juz ans tt n juz shut up n not a word more dan dat, juz like hw u all expect me to b(shuttin up n listening to ppl is wad u all call not being defensive...hidin all ur health probs, not makin dem obvious n spoilin ur health is wad u all call endurance..ok la mebbe u all r born fit, i m not...it is in my genes n i cant change my genes...)so i wanna make my relatives' dreams cum true..n my attitude n character is accepted by dem...so i m not gonna concentrate in all dese useless things anymore..i realise i hv wasted a lotta tym in dis useless thing...i cld hv dun much better things...dis is nvr gonna help me as much as my studies help me in my future life...n i dun think many of u r gonna stay w me thruout my entire life...i bet u all give an excuse tt my character is bad n u all will juz forget me aftr 2 or 3 yrs aftr sec 4...

n anw, i dun think i will b stayin in singapore thruout my whole life...so..y bother? well..u all can juz waste ur tym criticisin me n finding faults w me when i finish askin u all abt my probs a long tym b4...n u all can juz ignore me or forget it...i will juz b hurt..but d u all care abt it? NO..so y shd i care when u all dun care abt my own feelings?

dere is a sayin in tamil nalla maattukku oru soodo, nalla peNNirku oru vaarthai..

it means tt a cow will start pullin a cart aftr bein beaten once...in da same way, a girl shd noe tt she is beyond her limits aftr being told once...

i noe i m not at fault..my gd frenz n relatives noe tt too...u all can call me wadeva u want..but all dese sins is nvr gonna let u all...nvm, i shant say...so far, all dose hu hv given me troubs hv nvr bin in a gd position...pls dun get urselves into deep shit...if u still wanna continue n prove urself to b worse dan a cow, u can carry on by all means..tt's all i can say


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, September 17, 2004