wth man! u all think wad arh..one person say dis anthr person say smth else n ask me to listen to dem..hu u wan me to listen to? listen..u better gimme da blardie respect fer me..juz like hw i respect u, dun scream at u, dun get pissed off w u or dun tok bad abt u behind ur baq..u better dun do all dis..mind u, i can b worse dan wad i m rite nw..i can behave worse, tok worse n do worse things dan i m doin rite nw..n i m oso a short-tempered person..i m not ur servant maid or a slave to u fer u to order me arnd.. even a servant maid shd b treated w respect..n hu gave u da permission n authority to order me arnd? r u my boss or smth? even if i hv such a boss, i will quit my job i tell u..u jolly well gimme my due respect as ur fellow sch mate/batch mate..nw i really cant b bothered if u hate me, like me or wadeva bull shit! juz gimme my blardie respect...i nvr harmed u.. my acts usually dun harm anyone..most to most i will juz grumble to myself, be sad fer a while, den console myself, or pour out all my anger by tokin to sum one, n forget it..ur insults r all so unprovoked..i nvr tok bad abt u behind ur baq, cuz i directly tell u wad i dun like abt u..u jolly well tell me directly n dun gossip abt me behind my baq..if u cant tell me directly, better juz shut ur blardie mouth n keep dem to urself..i dun wan u to go arnd, sayin bad things abt me n influencin othrs to b against me..n dose ppl hu listen to her, pls have sum common sense n a mind of ur own n think twice before thinkin tt wad she says is true.. n i wun hesitate to apologise if i noe i m at fault..if i dun realise, u can cum n tell me. i give u da privilege to cum n tell me directly..but make sure u say it in a polite way n dun juz start yellin at me..i hv nvr screamed at u..n i m sry fer screamin at u rite nw..but juz remember tt dere is a limit to evry thing, n u r beyond ur limits rite nw..u better go baq to ur limits n not beyond it any more..if i find tt u r beyond ur boundary again..i can tell u tt u r gonna get it..not frm me dun wry..i still respect u..cuz i hv no rites to not respect as i m a person hu believes tt god is inside evry one n evry single soul on earth has to b respected..even animals n horrible creatures..tt's y i apologised fer my use of 'blardie' n fer my tone..n u better learn hw to b humble n understand othrs..dun juz roam arnd like a lunatic..

u hv to win urself in order to b fit to compete w others in da semi- finals of da competition called life..muz learn hw to control ur anger n emotions..dun juz scream at ppl fer no reason n get pissed of w dem..learn hw not to b jealous..n learn hw to understand others, deir emotions, deir health n deir physical abilities..dun any hw accuse ppl of doin things..dun suspect or lk dwn on othrs w out noein tt dey hv strong proofs..evry one is equal on dis earth..even a poor person hu is earnin money by singing n entertaining us at da mrt stations n othr public places, may hv othr inner talents, even tho dey r visually impaired or w any othr disabilities..we still hv to respect dem..learn hw to b generous..all in all, behave like a girl, a mature girl..b a perfectionist..NOTE: A PERFECTIONIST IS NOT A PERSON WHO IS PERFECT BUT WHO WANTS EVERY THING TO BE PERFECT... dun get me wrong..i m not sayin tt i hv all dese qualities..but i hv realised tt i lack sum of dese qualities n i m werkin on dem to improve..n i m askin u to realise tt u lack sum of dese..n TRY to change, like me...even if da change is not obvious, i will still count it as u at least tried n i wun torture u mentally..(like sum others)

okay..sry ppl..cool dwn nivy..y r u screamin like dis? wad happened to ur timidness n a little patience? cool dwn..relax..forgive n forget..ok..let's change topic..

sch was as usually stressful..had aad, orienteerin..got othr things..but as u all noe, i m surffering frm short-term memory..so i dunno wad else happened..haiz..dad plannin to change comp at hme..rite nw in comp lab hvin cs again..

anw, yest had arm-drills practice..my ankle is much more swollen dan usual..n i m havin muscle aches all ovr my body..i reached home yest at 6.00pm..washed my face, too tired to even eat, budden managed to finish eatin..den went to da sofa n slept..aftr 30 mins, my grandma woke me up to go n bathe..den i did as i was told to do so..den came baq n went baq to da sofa again..was plannin on wadta study..den watched tv as it was on n my sis was watchin it..den i watch until i fell asleep..den 11.00 my grandma asked me to go to our bed..den i sleepily went dere n slept again..i only woke up dis morning 5.30..haiz..nw i feel so guilty fer not studying yest..

dis morning i was so sleepy when i went fer morning assembly.. i was juz mechanically movin frm place to place..den dey had oratorical contest..i usually will b very interested in it..but todae, it juz made me feel more sleepy..went fer sci n nth enetered my head, wadeva mrs goh said..she was explainin abt smth all da while n aftr she finished, i asked her da same qn abt wad she was explaining..i was so maluated..haiyoahz...anw, by recess i was alrite..

anw, BELATED HAPPY B'DAE DIANA(27 AUG) N DEAR JIE JIE SABRINA(2 SEP)!

tmr hv CIP n den hv nc..hope i dun hv muscle ache again..
ok..
bubbye..


posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, September 03, 2004