hey guys! loong tym nvr blog..k..got nth much to say tho..i hv bin crammed w stuff evrydae until i hv not ym to even think of da werd "enjoy" or "relax"...evrydae cum hme like 7+...monday gt grp meetings n extra lessons..my official lessons end at 3 *no lunch break in between, only recess...:(* on mondays n tuesdays...den tuesday gt htl...i reach hme at 8.30 as usual..den wed gt house practise..it ends at 6.30..n it is compulsory..den thursday gt choir until 6.30...fri gt htl n tamil lit lessons...htl lesson frm 2.45 - 4.30 n tamil lit lesson frm 4.45 - 6.30...so again i reach hme only at 8.30...den sat gt tuition at boon lay...frm 11 to 2..n den sunday muz do n finish all hme werk..so practically evryday i sleep at 2 am or 3 am n wake up at 6 am...n summore gt so many tests..can u believe tt i had 1 set of class tests n 2 common tests in 1 term? i was so crammed lor..

den hols at least i tot can relax budden gt loads of hmwk..gt physics 4 chp in tys..den a msths n e maths, hv tys 3 chp each..summore hv dese two maths booklets full of sums..muz finish dem oso...den gt bio tys 5 chp..den gt htl n tamil lit hw..muz write 100 werds in tamil vocab bk...den gt english hw..gt geog elect hw too..muz do work book 2 chp..den gt bio test on enzymes n nutrition...n da test is on da monday right aftr da hols...so muz study fer tt oso..

i dun wan mar 19!!!! da unluckiest day...nth has bin goin rite ovr here...evrything is juz da opposite of wad i expect to happen...evry one is starting to scream at me, regardless of my own self-esteem being pushed dwn...i try my best to boost it up n ppl juz insult me in frnt of so many othrs fer no reason n i end up hving my self-esteem n self-respect being lowered...n i m oso getting pissed off very easily..i hv becum more violent..as in..when i m pissed off la..i hv started to throw thing n i broke things fer da first tym..i mean..hw much can a human being tolerate? unless dey wan me to keep evry thing bottled up to myself n burst one final day outta pressure n if dey wanna c a person die of pressure at da youngest age ever...

i m being pressurised by ppl to werk harder n score higher *which i think is totally ridiculous*..nah..hu cares..i will do my best n in da end i will not hv any regrets..

i wonder why
da earth existed
i wonder why
me, of all ppl
was born
i wonder why
i m considered
so useless
i wonder why
i m pressurised
n lastly
i wonder when
i'm cuming to an end...
-nivy-

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Monday, March 14, 2005