hey guys! has bin a long tym since i blogged..almost 2 mths..

btw..HAPPIE RACIAL HARMONY DAY!

haiz..tmr i hv eng common test and on friday i hv a maths common test...so sick of tests oredi mann..nw i understand da burden of my snrs in crez..haiz./...so damn sickening mann..i used to wonder what on earth dey wld b doin in class fer such a long tym..nw i can understand..dey used to have lessons until 5 on mondays if i m not wrong..

anw, i m so freaked out by todays series of events..firstly, morning when i was on my way to sch on my bicycle, i saw a pedestrian in front of me n so i wanted to give way..so when i swayed to my left, i din c dere was a tree's trunk tt protruded in da path way..so i had no space to move..i was stuck in between da pedestrian trying to hit neither of my obstacles...cuz if i hit da pedestrian even accidentally, i wld b in deep trouble cuz she was frm kent ridge too..if i hit da tree, my hands would become injured..so i tot it is better if my hand gets cut rather dan me getting into trouble...small cut wldnt kill me..unfortunately, i din c dere was a crack on da pavement...n i had heavy bks in the basket attached to da front of my bicycle..so dere was a small degree tt i turned n i slipped onto da mud cuz of da crack..i fell flat on da ground..like a captured soldier which i learnt in ncc..my head was facing down n my palms were facing da sky..haiz..i was sooo shaken by da incident..i hurt both my knees n my left elbow..my knees were bleeding... n damn it..i got my shirt dirtied..summore it was wet from da rain..so all da dirt was on my shirt..den was so embarrassed when i went to sch..luckily i had some bks in my hands..n i concealed da dirt w dem..i went to da toilet to get my shirt clean n dry..den rushed for morning assembly...

next trauma to me was....CHEM SURPRISE TEST!!!!!!!! mrs tan suddenly gave us a test..n she said tt dere wld be surprise tests evry week...wah lao eh...i m sure to lose at least 6 marks mann...da paper was only for 15 marks n yet i cldnt do it...arghhhh!!!!

i m soooo stressed up!!!! i hv bio hw..em hw..am corrections..ss project..eng arguementative essay...htl hw..OH MY GOSH!!! i cant stand it anymore...hw i wish i wld be back in my sweet home land...altho da standard of living is poor dere..i had a peaceful life...but choy la...i better complete my studies here n den go dere to have fun...i muz tahan for anthr 3 n a half yrs at least...

mebbe i m sooo stressed up cuz i m too ambitious?!?! i dunno..anw, everything is in my hands nw..whether i want to hv a bright future or a tiring future..whether i shdnt mind da stress n do well 4 studies or complain abt da stress n decline in my results...whether i shd make up my mind n continue to werk hard or whether i shd start slacking...well..i think i wld go for da positive one...anw, life is short..muz learn as much as possible..before i die..hu noes whether i will be alive da next minute? anything can happen at any time...so i better not change my track...cuz i hv my sister...hu is an ardent fan of me..hu admires me a lot...(according to what my mum says..) so my parents, my sister and i r like da compartments of a train...even if one compartment of da train is faulty or changes track, da whole train would change track too, or even worse, da train would collapse...so y shd i be the cause for my family train to collapse? i shdnt be selfish n start slacking cuz of my own emotions and desires...i shd think of my family too...

so now i have
made up my mind
to werk harder
to achieve my goals..

here i m
taking my oath
that i will never
become a stray coach..

thus i declare
i will be loyal
to my family
n friends
n make a difference
in all deir lives

i shall improve on
everything i can find
n be da guide light
for all to shine

i shall grope thru da dark
forgetting my worries
work considerately
and achieve completely..

anw, i wun be able to blog for da next few days cuz of my common tests..
so until den..it's farewell frm nivy!
byee!

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, July 20, 2005