hi..feeling very bored nw...jz read my previous posts..holidays r getting more n more boring as da days pass by..things tt i hv bin expecting to happen, have not been happening..of cuz, if wadeva we want to happen happens, den life wud not hv da thrill..bt it is so sickening to realise tt da thing i hv bin praying for, for 3 yrs, shows no signs of coming true..it has jz bin 2 wks since i came to india..initially, i had a lot of things to entertain myself with..listening to music, playing keyboard, self-learning guitar, playing with cousins, attending bajans, browsing da net, watching tv, going out with aunts n grand ma, visiting my relatives n so on..bt nw, i hv had enuff of dese..i dun feel lyk slacking anymore.. n i cant get myself to read a bk cuz i left all my best bks in singapore..in fact, nw i feel lyk studying..can study without stress, at my own pace..miss my bio, phy n chem bks..i had so many new things to learn, but there was a lack of tym..nw, i hv a shortage of bks n entertainers..or rather, i hv had too much of dem..haiz..dunno wad i m blabbering abt...

anw, i hv attended 2 weddings since i came to india..has bin 3 yrs since i attended indian weddings..well..anw, it was my maternal uncle's b'dae yest n paternal uncle's b'dae today..wished dem happy b'dae..well..nw, i hv got nth to look forward to.. u noe i hv dis bad habit of only moving on with life if i hv smth to look forward to..haiz..dunno hw i developed dis habit..when Os were going on, i was looking forward to my trip to india...nw, i can only look forward to da entrance exam i hv in feb..dis exam wld be da one which determines whether i can enter da best sch here called D.A.V...well, hope i can get thru..planning to start studying frm jan 3rd..kkz..let's not tok abt exams again.. i hv become so allergic to dat word..

My close relative said she wud be visiting me today...waiting for her nw..n tmr, my one n only older cousin sis is coming to stay with me for 2 days..i m quite close to her..has been more dan 5 yrs since i saw her..i last saw her during my maternal uncle's wedding in 2001 Jan..so, yea..nw, i hv gotten so bored listening to songs n playing da guitar..n even browsing da net...dese feelings occur very rarely..i always have enjoyed music..aiyoz..i snd more like under stress..i snd worse dan i did during Os...kkk...i cant stop myself frm toking abt Os...well..i shall stop chattering away for nw..i better go n do some physical activity nw..hv bin sitting in front of da com for 3 hrs...bubbyee!

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, December 08, 2006