hey.. has bin a year since i updated my bloggiee.. well.. a 12th grader's life sux.. but i guess i hv got used to it.. a few more months n i ll be outta this monotony..

well.. life's fine.. with loadsa frenz.. but u knw wat?? ppl say i m too nice to them n that makes them feel weird.. well.. i cant help it.. many ppl like me for hu i m.. n they giv me the freedom of expressing myself in my individual way.. they noe that i dunno hw to act in front of others n do smth else behind their baks.. i say wat i feel n i do what i feel is right. i hv bin trying to be as perfect a human as possible.. but ppl feel that it is too idealistic and they dun lyk that.. i hv forgotten how to be selfish, rude, mean n heck care kiond.. i care for evry one i know n pray for their well being and luv evry one i know... n ever since i came outta crez, ppl know me as the perfect human being.. they noe that i either luv them totally, or like them to a certain extent or am neutral towards them.. i can nvr hate any one.. not even the ones hu hv troubled me soo much, back stabbed me, hypocrites, or anyone hu has made my life miserable so far.. in fact, inside my heart, i thank them for doing such things cuz it has moulded me into a strong character but with a heart.. i know how it feels to be hurt by sum 1 n so i try my bez not to do it.. mebbe i hv hurt a few without my knowledge, but come on... i m a human after all..

i dun care wat they think abt me.. i will continue to be hu i am.. i will be nice to every one, as usual.. n if they feel weird, too bad.. i m juz lidat.. i cannot be mean to them or care any less abt themm..
ppl lyk my dear soulmate peng ke, my wonderful frend kenneth, hong han, chin sian, my sweetie cat, dorothy, and the most of all, varun, are the ones hu know me really well.. they have given me full freedom to be hu i m.. they nvr mistake me for any reason.. n i know that they r always there for me.. i m really blessed to hv such ppl in my life.. in fact, i m blessed with so many ppl arnd me, whether they like me or not... i luv all of themm.. that's all i know.. i want nothing but frendship in return to my luv, care n concern.. but if ppl r nt willing to open up their world to me, it is ok.. it is their own decision..

well.. i really miss my krss life.. my wonderful peng ke n all the tchrs there.. Life in giis is not bad.. at least, not as bad as i expected.. n krss classmates, the ppl of 4E6 2006 are the most wonderful, most mature ppl of my age hu i hv met.. human heart always realises the true value of smth when it isnt there.. but.. haiz.. it has bin a long tym since i had decided to follow god's plan for me, without questioning my faith in god.. so.. i guess there is a very exciting life waiting ahead of me.. i hv not even thot of harming othrs.. so i m sure god will not let me down at any point in time.. i hv bin telling myself every day that tomorrow will be a better day.. n i muz stop worrying about small issues.. today is the tomorrow that i worried about yesterday.. n there is always a tomorrow.. so there wont be any end to my worrying.. well.. i guess that's all for now.. me busy with mock exams n stuff.. so may not update frequently.. tc ppl.. all the best to every one.. i will pray for every one's well being.. n i will pray for world peace.. long liv humanity!!

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, December 17, 2008