helloo! yaaay! got in to a jc which i tot i wld never get into...SAJC! i tot my prelim results were not good enuff for such a jc..well..it is all by god's grace..thankyou my lord!

went out with uncle, sis n cousin today..went to spencer's plaza...den to pondy bazaar..den to da saidapet office...our own company...wah..such a big, high class office..anw, enjoyed myself today!

yup..bubbyee

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Thursday, December 14, 2006

Hi..

juz missing my classmates loads...dey r da ppl who brightened up my sec sch life.. da ppl whom i will nvr forget in my entire lifetym... n of all da class pics taken in my various schs in s'pore, i only brought my kentridge class pics...class photots of 4E6! miss u guys! i m very fortunate to hv met u all guys! altho i din really hang out with u all tt much, i still enjoyed ur presence...i enjoyed being with u all for 2 years...my 2 years in crescent tot me lessons for life...2 years in kent ridge gave me friends for life..i m glad my parents made a sudden decision on dec 23rd 2004, to transfer me frm crescent to kent ridge...if not for tt decision, i wld have suffered for anthr 2 yrs.. n wld hv lost my academic talents...not say, i do very well in studies...but at least da ability to study like an average student... i can confidently say i m not below average...hopefully i wld remain dis way..

anw, i m glad i at least got da opportunity to go out with a few of u guys during da last few weeks b4 Os...all da craziness, laughter, joy, scoldings, tests, exams, lessons n naggings tt we have gone thru...will definitely hold a very special place in our hearts...n wld always keep us close together...a special bond wld bond us in some way throughout our life...i jz wish i can bring u guys wherever i go...i wish i can stay with u guys forever..but i hv to open up to reality... life has to move on...even tho we r not physically close nw, i will forever be emotionally attached to u guys! u ppl rawk my world!

Ainul, Falaha, Rachael, Shu Xin, Tabitha, Hwee Ying, Dorothy, Nicolette, Pearlyn, Peng Ke, Priya, Roshini, Surbhi(migrated), Shu Xian, Desiree, Alex, Derick, Kenneth, Wei Xin, Marcus, Wei Min, Jace, Yuen Poh, Hong Han, Jian Loong, Wenyan, Wei Hao, Daniel, Sharath, Chin Sian, Joel, Ivan...

Woow...i rmb all of dem according to deir index no..haha..miss u all ppl!
hope to c u guys soon!
nivy..

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, December 13, 2006

hi..feeling very bored nw...jz read my previous posts..holidays r getting more n more boring as da days pass by..things tt i hv bin expecting to happen, have not been happening..of cuz, if wadeva we want to happen happens, den life wud not hv da thrill..bt it is so sickening to realise tt da thing i hv bin praying for, for 3 yrs, shows no signs of coming true..it has jz bin 2 wks since i came to india..initially, i had a lot of things to entertain myself with..listening to music, playing keyboard, self-learning guitar, playing with cousins, attending bajans, browsing da net, watching tv, going out with aunts n grand ma, visiting my relatives n so on..bt nw, i hv had enuff of dese..i dun feel lyk slacking anymore.. n i cant get myself to read a bk cuz i left all my best bks in singapore..in fact, nw i feel lyk studying..can study without stress, at my own pace..miss my bio, phy n chem bks..i had so many new things to learn, but there was a lack of tym..nw, i hv a shortage of bks n entertainers..or rather, i hv had too much of dem..haiz..dunno wad i m blabbering abt...

anw, i hv attended 2 weddings since i came to india..has bin 3 yrs since i attended indian weddings..well..anw, it was my maternal uncle's b'dae yest n paternal uncle's b'dae today..wished dem happy b'dae..well..nw, i hv got nth to look forward to.. u noe i hv dis bad habit of only moving on with life if i hv smth to look forward to..haiz..dunno hw i developed dis habit..when Os were going on, i was looking forward to my trip to india...nw, i can only look forward to da entrance exam i hv in feb..dis exam wld be da one which determines whether i can enter da best sch here called D.A.V...well, hope i can get thru..planning to start studying frm jan 3rd..kkz..let's not tok abt exams again.. i hv become so allergic to dat word..

My close relative said she wud be visiting me today...waiting for her nw..n tmr, my one n only older cousin sis is coming to stay with me for 2 days..i m quite close to her..has been more dan 5 yrs since i saw her..i last saw her during my maternal uncle's wedding in 2001 Jan..so, yea..nw, i hv gotten so bored listening to songs n playing da guitar..n even browsing da net...dese feelings occur very rarely..i always have enjoyed music..aiyoz..i snd more like under stress..i snd worse dan i did during Os...kkk...i cant stop myself frm toking abt Os...well..i shall stop chattering away for nw..i better go n do some physical activity nw..hv bin sitting in front of da com for 3 hrs...bubbyee!

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Friday, December 08, 2006

hi!!! Happy Birth Day my Dear MANGO! It has been 3 years since i hv known ur existence! May you Live a Long life n may u prosper! All the best in all your future endeavours! May god guide you in reaching ur goals! but pls reach certain impt ppl in ur life at da right tym...without delay..
Praying god for ur good health..
Nivy...
*ppl reading dis, pls dun be confused or puzzled n pls dun waste ur tym figuring out what today's post is all abt..it is jz for me to noe..bowzzz*

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Wednesday, December 06, 2006

hello! dunno y...feeling so possessive ovr certain ppl...i can't stand myself..argh!!! my negative points are that i m overly possessive, have very low self-esteem, not confident of myself..easily annoyed, highly irritable..not trusting ppl too easily..craving extremely for life-long frenz...sum tymz i get soo frustrated with myself for hving dese traits u noe?

n i m still searching for sum one whom i can hv for myself exclusively...peng ke is the first one in that list...but i hv bin separated frm her..haiz..so unfortunate..

anw, hols in india is not tt bad...playing key board, self-learning guitar, browsing da net, playing with my 3 cousins, out of which one is a 4-mth old infant...so keeeewt! den i hv bin updating my personal diary...anw, hv bin hving a few prayers constantly..

dey r:

- i shd c "mango" very soon(my close frends might understand)
- i muz become a paediatrician successfully
- nicolette-kenneth friendship shd stay this close and strong forever.. [it is very very hard to find such frends u noe? i shd say nic is very lucky to hv ken's frenship n ken is very lucky to hv nic's frenship]
- my frenship with peng ke shd last forever...[i shd say it is hard to find a fren like peng ke too! altho she is not very much inclined towards studies, she makes a very good emotional support! altho i only noe her for a year, we hv gotten damn close la..*our frenship started on sept 3 2005, during yellow ribbon walk*]
- everyone i noe shd live a long healthy life n shd stay close to my heart forever!

this is all i hv bin asking god..well..yup..i better sign off nw..bubbyee!

posted by battle between mind and emotions at Sunday, December 03, 2006